Insanity

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Chelsea and I both arrived to group therapy last everyone already seated.

"Okay, anyone want to share?" Levi asked us looking around.

"I stopped myself from saying something." Ian said first blandly.

"That's great Ian!" Levi said giving him a large approving smile.

Everyone clapped for him and Ian let a smile slightly appear on his face.

"Anything new Chelsea?"

"I've been getting panic attacks a lot more, but everyone's been supportive." Chelsea said softly.

"I call a bullshit. Everyone's always yelling at each other." Naomi said sitting up in her seat.

"How come? Is there drama going on?" Levi asked looking around.

"Callie is spewing negativity like there is no tomorrow." Gorge said speaking up.

"About?" Levi said pressing for more information.

"Leaving." Derek said.

Levi nodded thinking of what to say next.

"It doesn't matter, we're getting better."Naomi said.

"You are. Increasingly better." Levi agreed.

"Stop bullshitting us Levi. You're making them crazier. Ian thinks he's actual going to leave. He is schizophrenic no one will like him never the less talk to him." Callie spat.

"You're an angry issued bitch! Ian is doing better than you." Naomi said always being one to defend Ian.

"I think we all need to calm down and listen to each other. Maybe even try to convince Callie you are getting better." Levi said adding his input.

"With bulimia you either stop puking or die trying to stop. I can't improve or get worse. I either puke or don't. I wanna stop; I wanna have hope and say I'll leave but look at me. I'm 16 and still under 100 lbs." Gorge said speaking up.

"Why are we trying to get them to our side. I don't care wether Gorge makes it out. I just want to get out. For my sake." Ian said callousness returning to his tone.

"See, Ian you're a heartless schizophrenic asshole. You can't even control what you say you asperger idiot." Callie said.

Naomi stood up staring Callie dead in the eyes. "I'm done listening to her bullshit." Naomi said walking off.

"Ni!" Ian said calling after here. "Levi stop her!" Ian yelled standing up.

"I can't make her come back. And Ian you owe Gorge an apology."

"Fuck no! I won't apologize for being schizophrenic. I won't apologize for acting like an asperger idiot. Because I can't help it. I'm going to get Naomi." Ian said walking off.

Chelsea sat in her chair staring aimlessly at the ground. With Ian gone the room grew increasingly quite. The heat of the tension suffocating.

"Any words Derek and Chels?" Levi asked.

They both shook their heads. "Frankie?" He asked me.

"I feel bad for both of them." I said softly. "Their both in denial."

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It was lunch and they had mini pizzas before I could be exited I was being bombarded with Callie and Chelsea's bickering.

Being the only logical ones Ian and Naomi sat seprate from the bickering others. Gorge, Callie, and Chelsea fought while Derek and I ate with silence.