I'm sorry ~ Luke Hemmings

Chapter 11- downhill

**a week later**

Your POV

I have no idea what's even going on with my life anymore I thought it was getting better until 5 days ago. I haven't ate for four days and I've just stayed in my room. Luke has been living with me for a week exactly which really isn't a good thing I thought it was but nope. Youse probably don't know what I'm talking about, I should probably explain, luke has been seeing someone😔 I thought he liked me back but no. Her name is Lacey and she is a complete slut. She has bleach blonde hair and green eyes she always has way too much makeup on her face is like painted orange and she always has really big fake eyelashes on and bright red lipstick. Which annoys me cuz it always gets all over luke when she kisses him that annoys me. Luke's the kinda awkward person that doesn't jump to things but Lacey, she jumps straight to the sex I can tell.

I came out of my room and went to get a drink when I heard a noise in the living room so I went to see there it was. And that, that was too far it actually broke me I always thought I already was broken but I wasn't cuz now I know what it's really like to be broken. They were in my house snogging on the couch. I couldn't take this that wasn't it she was freaking rubbing him through his jeans. My sight was going blurry and I was breathing fast I just ran upstairs and slammed my bedroom door. I just sat there and cried my eyes out. I had to do this now I couldn't face either of them after this I took out a piece of paper and wrote "I always loved you luke, I'm sorry too" I the. Grabbed my blade and cut a few deep cuts on each wrist and went to the bathroom joined to my bedroom. I grabbed the pills and downed them with water 1 pill, 2 pills , 3 , 4 , 5 , 6..... I kept going until I got to 25. I heard a bang on the door and I saw luke standing at the door frame tears, in his eyes. I curled up and lay on the floor.