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ххιι: darĸ eyeѕ

~♥~
결코 달아날 길 없어
아찔한 이 게임 속에
너는 좀처럼 쉴
틈을 주지를 않아
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In the end, I can't escape
In this risky game
You don't give me
A second to rest
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Lucas P.O.V

"Fuck. Why do I still love you?"

I placed my face on the crook of Jungwoo's neck and breathed in his sweet scent. The familiar smell of strawberries intoxicated my mind like an entrancing spell. I had missed him so much, and now I was finally able to hold him in my arms. His skin felt so warm and tender under my fingertips- he was as delicate as a rose petal. My hands moved their way up his spine, and they eventually landed on the top of his head. I entangled my fingers with his smooth hair and lightly pulled on it as I began to place light kisses on his soft neck. I heard him quietly mewl as my lips made their way up towards his jawline.

"Wh-What are you doing?" Jungwoo asked in a slurred voice. His half-lidded eyes stared back at me with a confused expression. He placed his hands on my chest and tried to push me back, but his drunken state didn't allow him to use his full strength. I held onto his wrists and pinned them over his head. He whined loudly as he tried to squirm away. His face turned into a panicked expression when he began to realize that it was impossible to free himself.

"Let me go," he grunted out. I pushed him harshly onto the bed and placed my hands on his bare chest. He squeezed his eyes shut as his shaky fists clutched onto the bed sheets. I began to straddle him while leaning in towards his face. I placed my lips on his and tried to kiss him. He moved his head to the side in attempt to avoid my lips, but I held his head in place with my hand.

"You're such a fucking handful," I muttered. He slowly opened his eyes and quietly stared at me. His face was completely expressionless, but his cheeks started to glow a rosy pink color. His chest was rising up and down at an uneven pace due to his unsteady breathing. I leaned in towards his neck and hovered right above his ear. My lips clamped down on his ear, and I began to lightly bite him. I slid my tongue over the rim of his ear while my fingers lightly pulled on his hair. I heard him gasp when I slid my tongue down his neck, leaving a trail of saliva behind. His lips were slightly parted, so I quickly leaned in and kissed him. When I deepened the kiss, I heard Jungwoo moan underneath me.

After a few seconds, I leaned away in order to catch my breath. Jungwoo sluggishly brought his hands up towards his face and covered his mouth. His empty eyes were now brimming with tears as he stared up at me. I looked down at him and sighed. He was completely drunk, so I was pretty sure that he wouldn't even remember any of this later on. I knew that I probably shouldn't take things any further, but my selfishness was too strong. I wanted to keep going, even if it was wrong.

My hands made their way down towards the waistband of his boxers, stopping right before I pulled them down. I placed my hand right over his bulge and pressed down on it. Jungwoo rolled his eyes and arched his back while letting out a loud moan. I could feel the pit of my stomach becoming tighter the longer I stared at him. He looked absolutely stunning in my eyes, and his velvety voice was like music to my ears. I slid my hand down towards his inner thigh and lightly squeezed his skin. I glanced up at him and watched him bite his lip as he emitted a soft whine.

I sat up and stared down at him. My mind was dizzy and filled with lustful thoughts about Jungwoo. My heart pounded heavily inside my chest, and I felt myself getting more desperate by the second.

"Lucas? Why are you doing this?" I heard him ask in a soft voice. I glanced down at him and noticed the tears falling down his face. My chest began to feel heavy to the point where it became difficult to breathe. I brought my hands up to his face and wiped his tears away. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, "Do you really want this?"

I thought deeply about his words. Of course I wanted this. I knew that I was being selfish, but I didn't care anymore at this point. I had fallen for Jungwoo very hard, and there was no way out of it. I looked at him and nodded. He stayed quiet for a few seconds and glanced away from me. Afterwards, he brought his hands up to his face and covered his eyes.

"Do whatever you want."

I stared at him in shock. Was he really allowing me to continue?

"Are you sure?" I asked in a cautious voice. He didn't respond, so I stared at him while trying to figure out what to do next. He was clearly still drunk, so I didn't know whether or not to take him seriously. I sighed in frustration and looked up towards the ceiling. Why was I so conflicted about this? I already knew what I wanted, but for some reason I couldn't allow myself to continue. My heart kept feeling heavier the longer I thought about it.

"Hurry up before I become sober," he murmured. I shook my head and looked away from him. As I was about to get off of him, my mind became clouded with lewd thoughts about Jungwoo. My face began to heat up when I felt my lower region becoming tighter. I looked down at him and placed my hands on his face.

"I'm sorry."

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A/N: NCT IS COMING TO YEEHAW LAND IMMA LOSE MY SHIT