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깨고 부딪쳐야 해
우릴 볼 수 있도록
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We must break it apart and clash against it
So we can see ourselves
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Lucas P.O.V

"I'm sorry."

I leaned in and lightly placed my lips on his soft ones. This time, he didn't try to fight against me and just let it happen. I ran my tongue across his lower lip and softly bit down on it, causing Jungwoo to gasp a bit. I allowed myself in and dominated the kiss. I could feel the bottom of my stomach tighten up as my tongue roamed inside his mouth. His lips were just like candy, sweet and addictive. I couldn't help but to become lost in his warm touch the moment I ran my hands down his naked torso. My fingertips felt as if they were on fire.

As I continued to move my lips down towards his jawline, I heard Jungwoo softly panting. I brought my gaze up and noticed that his eyes were tightly shut. His pink lips were slightly parted while letting out small breaths of air. I sat up and let out a sigh of frustration. I brought my hands up to his face and cupped his cheeks in my palms. He slowly opened his eyes and stared at me with a conflicted look. The stars that once shined brightly were now dull and full of distress. My heart sank to the bottom of my chest as I watched his watery eyes gazing at me in pain. I lightly held onto his arms and pulled him up in a sitting position. The tears in his eyes rolled down his cheeks as he began to let out small whimpers.

"I'm so sorry," he cried out.

I lifted his face up and ran my thumbs across his cheeks, "Why are you apologizing for?"

"Even after everything, I can't give you what you truly want. I couldn't give you the perfect relationship that you wished for. I couldn't bring you the happiness that you truly deserved. Now I can't even satisfy you, and it's all because I'm such a stupid coward," his eyes lowered down as he choked on his words. He took a deep breath in and clenched his hands into tight fists, "I was so stupid for letting myself become such an egotistical asshole. I took advantage of you just because I knew how much you loved me, and I just ended up hurting you so much in the end. I deserve to be punished for all of the terrible things I said and did-"

His words were cut off the moment I placed my lips on his forehead. I brought my hands up to his head and lightly ran my fingers through his messy hair. A few soft sobs were still coming out of his mouth, so I pulled him into my chest and tightly wrapped my arms around him. I could feel his tears soaking through my shirt as he buried his face into my chest.

"Why are you treating me like this?" Jungwoo asked in a muffled voice.

I stayed silent for a few seconds. He slowly lifted his head up and stared at me with his tear-filled eyes.

"I still love you, Jungwoo."

His eyes instantly widened at my statement. He leaned away and buried his face in his hands, "Stop it!"

"You've taught me so many things in just these past few months. Because of you, I finally got to experience what true love is. There is no such thing as a perfect relationship, and all that matters is that we learn how to stay together through our issues. I miss you so much, Jungwoo."

"Why can't you just hate me?! Just hurt me already! Please, stop being like this!" he yelled out in a broken voice. I brought my hands up to his face and pulled his arms down. He lifted his head up and shook his head, "You deserve better."

I leaned in and lightly placed my lips on his. I closed my eyes and indulged myself in his soft lips. The sweet taste was addictive, and it was clear that I needed more from him. However, I knew that Jungwoo wasn't ready nor sober enough for this, so I stopped myself from continuing. I softly pushed him away from me and stood up. He laid down while letting out a small sigh and placed his hands over his face. His chest was rising up and down at an uneven pace due to his shaky breaths, and his cheeks were stained with streams of tears. He looked completely broken, but I didn't know how to help him. I didn't want to take advantage of him, but I also didn't want to just leave him like this. I lifted the covers and laid down next to him. My arms made their way around his waist as I placed my head on the crook of his neck.

"Go to sleep," I softly whispered. I felt him stiff up for a little bit, so I placed light kisses on the back of his neck. After a few minutes, he relaxed a little bit and finally began to breathe at a steady pace. His crying had now turned into small sniffles. I felt my eyelids becoming heavier as I listened to his steady breathing. His body was emitting a comforting warmth that made me feel as if I was at home. The familiar aroma of strawberries reminded me of all the memories we had together. My mind began to drift off as I started to recall our first encounter. Everything had seemed so simple and perfect back then, but it all had somehow turned into the huge mess that it is today. I wanted to keep trying, even if it meant that it would take a long time for us to finally love each other again.

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A/N: I have finally risen out of the depths of hell after 5281394 years :) I hope y'all are having a nice day 😎