I wake up with a headache and a brace placed on my ankle. I rub my eyes and see I'm in a hospital room, alone. I groan and reach for my phone. I see multiple messages from the boys but lock my phone, not wanting to deal with it just yet. My hospital door opens and a doctor walks in.
He smiles at me and walks over, "glad to see your awake." I nod in response, not really knowing what else to say, "you took quiet the fall there. How are you feeling? You've been out for a while." He adds.
I cock my eyebrow, "what do you mean a while?" I ask.
"Well you've been asleep for a week. Unfortunately on your way to the hospital you were in a wreck in the ambulance. Everyone survived but you had sustained more injuries, such as, 3 bruised ribs, and a concussion." He says, "also your birthday is in 2 days."
My heart drops and my anxiety heightens, "w-what." I stutter.
My heartbeat races and the machine to my right goes off, "calm down, it's okay," He says and rubs my shoulder, "Would you like me to contact the gentleman to come upstairs, unfortunately only one boy here at the moment." He asks.
I nod and bite my lip. He leaves and I sit there absolutely clueless. I grab my phone again and look at my lockscreen of me and Sam and smile.
I hear footsteps running down the hallway and my door swinging wide open, hitting the wall behind it.
There stood Sam looking horrible in a baggy yellow hoodie, and a pair of black skinny jeans. He looked a mess, with greasy hair, and baggy eyes. He smiles and at me and runs over to me, getting on his knees by my bed.
Tears brim at my eyes and I grab his hand for dear life. He stands up and I scoot over allowing him to lay down with me. We face eachother on the bed, still not saying a word, but crying into eachothers arms. He grabs my face and pulls me into a long kiss before pulling me into his chest.
We remain like that until we both fall asleep together.
I hear voices and open my eyes and yawn. I see Colby, Corey, Jake, and Elton sitting around my bed making casual conversation.
Elton is the first to notice I'm awake, "Morning kid. You certainly took quite a long nap didn't you?" He says. All the boys turn their attention on me with bright smiles. Sam wakes up and jumps a bit as everyone's looking at us.
"Fuck." I groan.
Sam sits up in a slight panic, "are you okay?" He says.
I sit up and rub my chest, "my everything hurts." I say and lean back into the bed.
"I'm so glad your alive." Jake says and hugs me. A dull pain rings through my body but I ignore it.
One by one the boys say sweet things and hug me. I smile feeling so appreciated. Sam pulls me back into his chest and kisses my forehead.
"I wanna leave." I groan. They smile at me.
The doctor comes in, "Alright Alaska, looks like you'll be okay to go!"
Colby looks at the doctor, "what about medications?"
My heart beats faster, "Uh I-i have to pick them up." I stutter.
"What exactly is she prescribed?" Elton asks, curiously.
Before I got the chance to butt in the doctor says, "just Ibuprofen, extra strength since she can't have n-"
"Nothing." I say cutting him off quickly, "can we please leave now." I say.
Everyone looks at me confused, the doctor nods and opens the door leaving.
I force a smile to my face and hold back all of my tears.
"We, Uh, brought you some clothes." Corey says and hands me a pair of joggers and a oversized yellow shirt.
"Thanks. I'll meet you guys outside." I whisper and stand up. I get used to gravity again and walk to the bathroom to change. I hear them all walk out and shut the door.
I lock the bathroom door and slide against the door, letting my tears flood out of my eyes. I gasp for breath I scratch as my arms. I whine and groan and lay on the cold floor sobbing. I never wanted any of them to know this about me, or anything of my past, I'm ashamed.
I slide on the clothes and wipe my face leaving it blotchy and red. More tears begin to stream down my face as I look at myself in the mirror. Who am I?
I hear the door open behind me and Colby is standing in the doorway staring at me.
I turn around and look at him, as it brings more tears to my eyes.
He walks towards me and hugs me tight. Pain vibrates through my body but I cling to him.
"I hate myself." I whisper into his shoulder.
He holds my tighter not saying a word then pulls back and wipes my tears away.
"We'll talk about this when we get home okay?" He says. I nod and walk out with him and down to the lobby to get into the car waiting for me at the entrance.
I get in the passenger seat next to Sam and hold his hand. He drive us back home and everyone talks casually except me, and everyone noticed.
We get back to the house and we all walk in. Everyone disperses into different rooms except for Sam, Colby, and Jake. We sit in the living room.
I rubs my hands together and bite my lip so hard I taste blood. I hated breaking down in front of anyone. A few tears escape my eyes and fall onto the floor.
"What's going on babe?" Sam asks and scoots closer to me.
"There's something you need to know."
