I sit alone. Thinking about the hell just happened. Jake walks away and towards the bathroom. I stay outside as it begins to rain. I let the rain drench me as I pull my hands the through my hair. "Fuck." I whisper.
I stay out there for about an hour before a towel is wrapped around my body.
I look up and see Sam standing there with a straight face. He begins to walk away, "Sam. Please." I beg.
He stops and turns around sighing. He sits down by me on the grass letting the rain hit him as well.
"Sam, I'm so sorry. I don't know what the hell I was thinking, I wasn't thinking at all. Sam I'm a mess right now I don't know what I'm doing. Tomorrow is my birthday. and idk I just feel like it may be easier if I just leave." I frown.
He sighs again, "Lask, I know you've been going through a lot right now. You just, hurt me, I just don't know what to do. I don't want you to leave though." He says, "I was falling for you, and now I'm just, confused."
I hold his hand, "Sam I'm so sorry. I fucked up. I really did. I don't know why I betrayed you in the first place. I fucked up your whole dynamic here. I fucked with Jake. I don't know how to fix it. I'm a terrible person." I admit.
He squeezes my hand, "no, your not. Your just hurt, confused, angry. I get it, I haven't been reacting to your past very well, Jake was there for you, he made you feel safe when I was being a coward and left you all alone. That's on me." He breathes out, "I forgive you, but you need to decide what you want. I don't want to be played and Jake doesn't deserve that either. Come inside your gonna get sick." He says. We walk inside and I see all the boys gathered around on the couch. They stare at me as they walk in. Jake gives me a horribly saddened look.
Sam takes me into the laundry room and closes the door letting me change into dry ones. I pick a yellow 3 am hoodie and a pair of black shorts. I walk back out and everyone stares at me once again.
"Hey." I whisper.
"We need to talk about what just happened."
"Do we?" I say.
They give me confusing looks, "guys I appreciate what you've done for me." I start off, "I don't think me being here would be the best idea." I state.
They all adjust uncomfortably, Colby stands up, "Laska, we love you, you've grown on us. We hate all of this drama, and it's partly our faults too. Not all of us," he looks at Sam and Jake, "have been supportive. We understand you have some issues, but don't well all? We don't want you to go, but you need to figure out what your going to do, for our sake." He says.
I nod, "I think I'm gonna go away for a while." I state. They looks at me nervously, "I think maybe tomorrow since all of my money comes in I'm gonna go away for a while and just figure out my feelings and what I can do. I'm sorry I've put you guys in this position. I love you guys." I frown and look down.
"No, Lask we don't want you to go." Elton says, "we want to work this out."
I look up at their saddened faces, "What can I do? Tell the truth? Honestly, Sam I'm falling for you. And Jake I'm so fucking sorry. I was at a low point. I love you so much. I love all of you so much. I just don't want to ruin things more than they already are."
Jake stands up, he approaches me and hugs me, "no, I'm not mad, I see you as more of my bestfriend anyways." He smiles at me.
Everyone else stands up and hugs me.
"Why are you guys so nice to me. Any normal rational people would have wanted my ass out." I say.
"Bitch since when did you think were 'normal' 'rational' people?" Colby laughs.
I smile, "alright. I love you guys." I smile.
