When I Say, I Love You...

Chapter 8

I could feel all the blood rush to my face. Michael grabbed my arm"Calm down, Liyah." 

"Don't tell me.to calm down!"I said to him."This man thinks he can come in here and blame Susanne for something she did not do." 

Ike started laughing. 

"What are you laughing at?"I asked, crossing my arms across my chest. 

"Susanne must've never told you anything about your mother, did she." 

I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. I really didn't know what to say. 

He let out a chuckle then reached in is pocket and pulled out a cigarette, he lit it with a lighter and blew the smoke in my face. 

"Hey!"michael said pulling my back. 

Ike ignored him."That's what I thought. Aaliyah you have a lot to learn. You need to know what your mother is and who Susanne really is and" 

"wait, what do you mean who Susanne really is" I asked. 

"Well Susanne and Leah wasn't just best friends you know, I mean if you think about it, Aaliyah. Do you honestly think she'll do what she did for her? They had to be more then just friends." 

I gave him a confused look."What are you talking about?" 

"Well, Aaliyah, lets just say your mother wasn't an only child."He said mailing at the both of us. 

I thought about for a moment."Wait a minute are you telling Susanne and my mother was sisters?" 

"he nodded his head then blew some more smoke. 

"how could she not have told me." I asked with tears welling in my eyes. Michael put his arm around me. 

"Umm I think it's time for you to go Mr. Turner." He said. 

"well Aaliyah, if you need anymore questions answered you know where to call" he said but I was to out of it to answer. Michael pulled into the house and closed the door. He turned to me and stared at me. 

I shook my head._I cannot believe this, shit." I said as I kicked the wall."I am sick of being lied to all the damn it just doesn't make any sense." I slidd down the wall and collapsed to the floor and buried my face in my hands. 

"How do you know he's telling the truth?"Michael asked he sat down on the floor next to me. 

"Because Michael, in my mothers dairy entries it talks about Susanne doing things for her like she was her sister and know Susanne she doesn't have that good of a heart." I looked up at Michael. He was giving his look that said'I really don't know what to say about this.' I grabbed his hand."It's like everyone I've ever trusted has kept some kind of secret from me or lied to me about something andbI'm tired of it. Like who on this world can I trust?" 

"You have me, remember." Michael whispered in my ear. 

I couldn't help but to smile."Yeah, I've always trusted you." Then I was serious again"But you've got to prmise to never lie to me okay, it would hurt me if you ever lied to me, because I love you to much."  

He smiled from ear to ear." I promise." He leaned in to kiss me but I beat him to it. Those lips always made me feel better.

I sat in the kitchen all by myself waiting for Susanne to come in. I had never been so angry with her in my life. I couldn't get my temperature to go downthat's just how upset I was by this whole situation. I spent my whole life trying to find out secrets about my mother and listening to people who lied to me and now that I'm damn there twenty years old I was gonna get secrets out of her I don't care what it takes.  

I heard the door open and then her hills clicking and as she walked across the wooden floor. She was humming tunlessly. When she came into the kitchen and smiled."Hi Aaliyah, how was your week?" 

"Well, it was good I met Keisha and and her mother." 

"That sounds great."she said as she sat in the chair across from me. 

I nodded my head sarcastically"Mmmhmmm, and guess who came looking for you?" 

"Who?" 

"Ike your secret lover." I said doing the quoting thing with my fingers. 

Her smile faded"What are you talking about?" 

"Why did you lie to me and said you payed him money so he would allow momma to see Keith, when really you did alot more then just that" 

She blinked and just stared at me as if she didn't know what to say. 

I raised my eyebrow waiting for an answer."Look i'm not mad at you for doing that, it's disgusting but i'm not mad. I'm mad because you lied to me, don't you think I've been through enough and for my own God mother or should I say Aunt, to sit up there and loe to me, it hurts. I feel like I can't trust only a few people in this world." 

She stared at me even more blankly 

"Yes I do know about that to." 

"Look, Aaliyah I'm sorry but I can't answer all your questions and some of the things you do know I just can't figure out a way to tell you.When your mother died I told myself I wouldn't tell you these things because. I-I just ddn't want you to spend your whole life worrying about your mother." 

"Wow, you did an amazing job at it to."i said very sarcastically. 

"Look Aaliyah i don't need your sarcasm." 

"Well if you stop lying to me all the damn time i wouldn't be so sarcastic." 

"Aaliyah Dana Haughton!, if you don't stop getting an attitude with me. Swear I will ground you longer then i've ever had before." I rolled my eyes and sat back in the chair crossing my arms."Now, i'm sorry I realize I was wrong for not telling you, but all of that is in the past and i've put it behind me, and I think you should to." 

"You say that like it's so easy. You try putting things behind you, when your mother have secrets that you want to know. You try putting things behind you when as soon as your brother dies there's more secrets that comes out. You try putting thing s behind you when you mother leaves big mystery behind when she dies and you can't seem to solve it."p 

"Okay you have a point," she admitted."but like. I said I don't know the answer to all these questions you have, she kept then pm hidden in that cabin and in that house she lived in on raspberry lane." 

6977 Raspberry Lane was the house my mother and I lived in before we spent the rest of our times I remember in that cabin. I don't remember much from it but that name triggered something in brain that gave me the urge to go there I knew it was still in her name because she never sold it."look Susanne all I want you to do is tell me the truth and not lie to me.okay. Because your my only mother I have on this earth and I want to be able to trust you, and have to wonder whether or not you lying to me every time you tell me something." 

She smiled." You called me you mother." 

I shook my head and laughed."Your my aunt and aunts are always like second mothers." 

She laugh and stood up to give me a hug."I love you baby girl." 

"I love you to." 

I kissed her on her cheek. And grabbed my car keys off the hook."where are you going.?" 

"I got some business to take care of."

Once again If I misspelled anything i'm sorry used the tablet again