When I Say, I Love You...

Chapter 39

I was released from the hospital three weeks later, I had Gained some of my weight back, but i still refused to eat anything. I had gone into this huge dressing state where I would go a whole day without saying a word. I would just sit sown on my couch and stare out of the window. Michael had put the rest of his tour on hold because of my condition. Of course it had gotten into the press , I done know how, butu never know how they find out thing about me. I knew they had suspected something when my Michael just put his tour on hold all of a sudden. But i didn't care about the press. At that point I really didn't know.what to care about. That whole experience just traumatized me to the max. I had never felt so much pain. I never even had the chance to take the time and love him. But somehow I felt like I knew him for years.

Peoples had been calling and coming by to check on me five times a day and I was tired of it. I wasn't in the mood for people asking me how I was doing or if I was okay, I just didn't want to be bothered. Period. Michael nicely asked them to stop calling and co.ing by until I get better. I could tell he doubted I would but his mother said I will come through. To be honest I just didn't think I would come through. I mean what woman can go through anything so terrible and walk out in the world.with a smile on her face.

Michael walked into the living room. He forced a smile on his face and stood behind me and started masaging my shoulders." Hey, youwant to go was,h a movie?" He asked.

I shook my head.

" well we could do anything, just say-"

"Michael, I don't feel like doing anything. So just please leave me alone." I moved his hands off my shoulders.

" Liyah, you cant just sit there be miserable forever. You have to move on."

" How can I move on? I lost my son, Michael."

" He was my son to" he said.

I rolled my eyes.

" Baby-" I held up my hand. Stopping him." Baby why are you being like this, you haven't even gone Back to work yet."

" and neither have you." I pointed out." And how can i go back to work, huh? You try going back to work after you've gone through what I've gone through."

" Aaliyah, you act like you was the only one who went through something."

" I was, I was the one who lost all the blood I am the one who went through all the pain ofthat miscarriage, I am the one who cant carry a child for more then a month, and what have you done besides nag me ever since I've gotten home?"

" I have cared about you, tries to make you eat and get better, trying to make sure you take that medication everyday. Just like whatevery husband who cared about his wife." He said

" well I done need you to do that, if you really was a good husband you'd leave me the well alone." I said angrily. I looked back out into the rain.

" Well if you want to be left alone then fine." He said he got up and stormed out of the room slamming the door behind him.

Michael's POV

Michael drove out to Havenhurst to talk to his mother about Aaliyah, he had tried everything he could think of to help her but she was still in the same state of mind she was in before. When he walked in the house she was straightening up the kitchen she smiled when she saw her son walk in. " Hey, honey." She said giving him a hug.

" hey." He said. With a little sadness in his voice.

She set the broom aside." Hows Aaliyah?" She asked as she walked over to the chair closest to her.