mykah.

wish you were gay. + all the good girls go to hell.

OMNISCIENT.

"Can we talk about something?" Mykah turned to Zion as the two laid in the trampoline that took up a corner of the prettymuch back yard. The two had just finished swimming at a friend of his' house and they wanted to dry off outside. Mykah has worn an all black two piece with her hair in a bun but wore one of Zion's black shirts to cover what he called, 'too naked of a body.'

"Yeah, shoot." He said as he put down his phone knowing it was something important. "Do you remember how we were in elementary and middle school?"

"Yeah, we were inseparable. You remember when I got into a fight with Steven because he tried to touch you at the eighth grade formal?"

He laughed as she rolled her eyes at the memory before laughing as well. "You were doing the most, you literally socked him for rubbing my back."

"Well, no one was going to touch my girlfriend." He said in a duh tone but her head jerked to greet him a look of pure confusion before she sputtered into a fit of laughter.

"What! We never dated." She said as he nodded in agreement, "we didn't but for a while, to me you were my everything, and everyone could tell but you." He confessed and it caused her to think.

"How long is a while?"

"I started liking you in the first grade and it carried itself until I started liking Ariana, in the eleventh grade." Mykah instantly was shocked.

"Damn I finessed you for that long? I knew I was fine but dang, pullin niggas since way back in the day. But if I'm being honest I liked you in the tenth grade. That's why I started acting weird." Mykah confessed.

"It was weird actually, I seen you as this person I didn't know I needed to have until it felt like you weren't going to be there anymore. As we gained more friends it's like we were together but we weren't and I guess when I developed feelings I pushed you away in attempts to not lose you but I mean look where it got us.

When I tried to show some sort of affection it didn't really connect because you were used it and when I'd try getting sentimental but I'd let it diffuse itself because you blew it off. I just wanted to make you feel okay, but you didn't feel the same." She rambled on letting everything from their past kind of resurface.

"When you started blowing me off for other people I knew you were slipping away and I couldn't do anything about it. That's why I used to fight with you, I missed you and you didn't understand."

"At times I felt giving up was the best option when you didn't text back and you'd skip out on our 'us days.' I honestly just felt rejected but I'd feel a little better when you'd decide to come to me with your problems. Later on though, I felt like shit because that's all you needed me for, so when you left that's why I didn't try so hard to keep in touch. I was tired."

"I knew," Zion started as he took a minute to recollect himself. "I knew how you felt about me, but I also knew I wasn't going to be in Ottawa for much longer." His confession confused her.

"You knew? And you didn't say anything?"

"I couldn't, you told me that night at Christopher's end of the year party on the last day of Junior year. One, I was only going to be there for two more weeks, and two, it felt wrong to try and make something of your feelings when I wasn't sure you remembered letting me know you had any." To this she nodded in understanding.

"I can get that, but what I don't get is how you let that cheating bitch come back from summer break and feel entitled enough to parade around and feel bad and cry to everyone about you leaving all while feeling prideful enough to brag about you leaving, specifically me." She nodded along with the last part feeling her past anger rise within her.

"What do you mean?" He asked confused.

"She was a bitch to me, so much so that the next day I slammed her head into her lunch table. You should've chose better when you were looking for a girl because she wasn't it." To this news he was shocked.

"That was you? She texted me that day and said she hated me and never wanted to talk to me again. She said it was my fault what happened to her and then blocked me." Mykah laughed at his amused expression.

"The womanizer got curved? wow, it must've even a cold day in hell, wasn't it?"

"Fuck you—" she cut him off immediately, "that reminds me, tell me about the hater Haley, how are y'all?"

"uhm were good, she hasn't cheated on me, anyways how are you and Derek. I want all the details everything from start to finish right now." He said and got as comfortable as he could get on the spring supported net. She rolled her eyes before rolling on her stomach and sighing thinking back to the first time her and Derek met.

"Well, I met him at the same party I told you I loved you. I guess he picked up the pieces that I didn't. I kept it together like I do, but one time I got really mad and it was over something so small and I just spazzed out and he calmed me down. After that I got really attached and then we got together. When we moved here though he kind of changed."

"Changed how?"

"If you'd shut up and listen maybe I could tell you, Caleb. Anyways, he went from this sweet guy to a, I don't really know, a monster."

AALIYAH.
Brooke
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