This Love

Thinkin'

February 3rd, 2025
Malibu, USA
Miley's POV      

I woke up and ran to the bathroom to vomit. Afterwards I rinsed my mouth out with mouthwash. I walked back into Liam's and my room and sat on the bed.

"Well, that was weird." I say to myself, then my eyes grow wide, and I count on my fingers. "I missed my period...no, no no no no no."

"Hey babe, kids are at school." Liam says as I walk into the living room with a blank look on my face. "Something wrong?"

"Do you remember our wedding night?"

"Hell yeah I do, and I'll never forget it."

"So then you remember whether or not we used protection." Then Liam laughs.

"Of course I don't remember that."

"Well that's just terrific then." I say sarcastically, then I look at Liam seriously. "I missed my period and I just got done throwing up."

"Oh..."

"Yeah, "oh". Liam, what the fuck are we gonna do?"

"Well, would it be so bad if we did have another baby?"

"Oh of course! I'd love to have another!" I say with a fake smile, then it fades. "As long as you give birth to it!"

"Sorry, sorry. I was just thinking-"

"Of the fact that yeah, having another baby might be nice. Except for the fact I have to deal with being pregnant again and have to lose my body figure again and have mood swings again. Liam you gotta think about me here, it's my body that's gonna get all fucked up."

"I know, that's why I was only thinking about it. I'm not gonna make you do it."

"Good, cause even if you tried to make me, I won't. My body, my choice."

"Okay, so...? What's gonna happen?" Liam asks.

"Well first I'm gonna go get a pregnancy test...maybe two. I can go do that right before the twins get out of pre-school, then just pick them up and head home. That way it's only one trip other than when Jessica gets out of school."

"Okay, sounds like a plan...but seriously. Stop freaking out for a moment and think. Would it really be that bad if you did happen to be pregnant?" Then I sigh.

"No." I admit. "Jessy is gone for the whole day, the twins are gone for half of it. It gets pretty quiet around here. It sometimes feels just...boring. Jessy is seven now and the twins are four. I don't know."

"Would you hate it if you were?"

"No...I don't think I could ever hate it. And truthfully, I'd probably not mind at all. Sure, babies are a handful. But that's what comes with having one." Then I laugh.

"What?" Liam asks.

"If I am pregnant, Noah and I are just gonna have babies only a few months apart." Noah had told everyone she's pregnant by now, so I can talk about it with Liam.

"Hah...how about that."

"Now it seems like the day is gonna go on forever, it'll seem like forever until I can go get the test."

"It'll come soon enough. Why don't we go out or something? To a late breakfast?"

"That's okay with me." I say with a smile.

After Liam and I went out for breakfast, we went home and hung out before it was time to go get the twins. I decided to just go alone, to have some time to think about things. I drove to the nearest store and bought two pregnancy tests. I walked back to my car and drove to Cecilia's and Leonardo's school. It was a building for head-start and pre-school both. Next year they get to go to elementary school...after I parked, I looked at the pregnancy tests in the bag. I suddenly felt very nervous. I know what I said to Liam is true, I do feel that way. That doesn't mean I can't freak out. I'm sure Liam is too, we haven't had a new baby in four years. There is one very good thing about this though if I am pregnant. Liam will be here throughout my entire pregnancy. No movie, no divorce. And I'm not figuring it out when I'm three months into my pregnancy. Maybe I'll have a completely normal one this time.

When it was time to go get Cecilia and Leonardo, I got out of my car and walked to the school. I went into the building and waited for them in the front entry. After they came out, they ran towards me and hugged me.

"Mommy!" They say in unison.

"Hi kids."

"Where's daddy?" Cecilia asks.

"You don't want me?" I ask with a frown.

"Yes we do!" Leonardo says.

"Alright, let's go home." Then I walk to my car with the twins and help them in their booster seats.

While I was driving home, I couldn't stop thinking about whether or not I might be pregnant. I also couldn't help but wonder if it's really a good idea or not. I mean, if I'm pregnant then I'm pregnant. I'm not getting an abortion after having three kids, it's just not the thing I wanna do. When we got home, I helped the kids out and gave them their backpacks. When I opened the door, they ran inside and hugged Liam.

"Hey baby." I say, then kiss him.

"Hey. So, did you get the-"

"Yes." Then I hold up the bag to show him. "I've been holding it since I fucking left home." Then Liam laughs and I glare at him.

"Sorry, go." Then I walk to the bathroom.

I could barely hear Liam in the living room, playing with the kids. I washed my hands and put the two tests down on the counter. I walked into the living room, then Liam looked at me.

"So...what do we do while we wait?" Liam asks.

"I don't know. I kinda wanna freak out, you do what you wanna do." Liam stands up, and embraces me. "Liam...I know I said what I said earlier..."

"Miley, you said what you said earlier...leave it at that. So what if you change your mind? Whether or not we're ready, if you're pregnant then-"

"Liam I know." I say, irritated, then I sigh. "I'm sorry. I just don't know what kind of emotions to feel."

"What do you feel?"

"Scared, happy, worried, frustrated...terrified."

"Terrified is basically scared, Miley."

"Yeah, I know...but I mean I am literally terrified."

"Why?" Liam asks.

"I know I've been pregnant before, and I know I've given birth before. I can still be terrified."

"I know you can. You have a perfect reason."

"What are you feeling?" I ask Liam, then he sighs.

"Excited for another baby, worried about you, impatient for the results..."

"Well it's time to look."

"Want me to go with?"

"No, I'll just go. I wanna be alone..." Then Liam nods.

I walk into the bathroom and look at both tests at once. I stared at them for a couple seconds, just frozen.

"Oh my god...Liam..." I say, crying. He rushes into the bathroom and looks at me.

"What?"

"Liam...I'm pregnant."