They don't know all about love at all'
But they can feel the pain when they see one of them with other person.
They can feel the coldness when they didn't see each other even for a second.
They can feel that half of his part not with them when they...
I'll give you a backhug I'll put my cheek on your ear So that your tear flows on me and stop You can just lean on me Even just for awhile You don't have to say anything, just come into my arm
Yeah... I know that the song I hear, not happy song, and not a happy ending song. But some lyrics picturing what I wanna do right enough.
I'm on my way to where Neil is right now. And the song appear from the radio channel in my phone before I change into m3player. And the chorus part hook me right away when I searched the translation.
It needs around 8 hours trip from my condo. And 2 hours up to the high land. I take a train, then rent a car there. I want to save my energy, because I know I'll spend more when I meet Neil later.
My mind wandering to deep conversation with Finn last night while I look the scenery. I sip my hot chamomile tea, and try to remember all words that time.
Flashback
"What do you feel when you find Pam?" I ask without look at him. I don't know is this a right decision to talk with him or not. But since he's the only one best friend I have, so... Yeah...
I hear some heave breath before he start to speak.
"So, finally we talk about this," Finn smirk at me.
I just put my glare to him, then he move back.
"Okay.. Okay.."
He take an apple on the table. Yes, I take out all fruits from my fridge. Just because...
"Believe or not, I used to be like you, Mark."
"How?"
"Dumb..... Auh!"
I land a slap to his head. And I'm questioning myself how can I tagging along with this shit for long time.
"But it's true!" He whines while rubs his head. "I'm the dumber one for not realize that Pam is my right one, for the first."
"Go on," I sip my hazelnut coffee.
"For the first, I didn't realize anything because I always can see her everyday, dan talk to here every time. She always be these, around me, or in my Line."
He takes a bit of apple again, munch it, and look at me right in my eyes.
"Hear this carefully. I think you'll see something through my words."
"Try me," I answer and take some grapes.
He take a breath, and he spills everything. And those all hit right in my heart, where I never wonder to touch by anyone before.
Then, slowly I start to realize, that that part stolen by someone. Someone who I never ever think even once, that he.... Is the one.
End of flashback
I try to gathered what Finn talked about last night.
I accustomed to his presence in my daily, so I felt my days weren't complete when Neil wasn't around me. Like now.
I adjusted very much with Neil tendency for being clingy and glue to myself, so I felt something missing, even just a lil' hug when he didn't do that for a moment I met him. Like now.
I felt my nerve became worse when I didn't see him for a day, I wasn't in right senses, and couldn't work properly like who I am used to be. Like now.
He became the one I always looking for when I stay in club room and saw juniors and other members came in and out, and when I didn't found him, because of different class schedule, it makes me worry about him. Much. Like now.
He became apart of my time, and my moments became empty whenever I couldn't see him, or wherever I couldn't find him. Like now.
I wanna hugged him, let him sat on my lap, felt his warm when he snuggled on chest, felt the comfort feeling when he's laid his head on my shoulder, and I miss his lil' kiss on my cheek, and his sweet smile when he stared right to my eyes. Like now.
I feel cold suddenly. It's 00.30 and still around 3 hours and 2 hours. Still long time, but I feel so crazy. Then I try to make myself comfortable on the seat, and prepare everything around...
I see the moon outside the window. The moon who always accompany my way, day and night.
Just like him
All I can do now, just close my eyes, and hope that it's not to late to reach my moon and embrace him in my arms.
Author's note The song you listen above is the song from Korean 1st generation idol group named Sechskies.
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It's my favourite group all the time. The title of the song itself is Back Hug.
The reason I put their song here is because I start to write other story about some of them called J-Walk.
So, I want to introduce them first to all of you, and I'll publish it when I'm ready.
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Yellow is their fandom color. 6 heart, because they have 6 members. Well, now they active with 4 members. But I'm one off who still stand for 6 members. And because their name itself, Sechskies = 6 Crystals.
8 hours, is the proximity from my city to the other city, out of provence. My favourite city to "runaway". 2-3 hours is proximity from there to plateau where still in my bucket list. Hope I can be there, someday.
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