One Breath (OffGun)

18. Please

Mark's POV

I look delicate face in front of me and cares that face slowly. His fever reduce and begin slight to normal. At least for now.

I still remember his pale face when I found him under the heavy rain. I can't believe that he can fell a sleep under the drop. Or he refused to woke up? I'm not sure.

Everything he did today, really freaking me out. But, if he didn't do those thing, I will never ever realize about what's goin' on in the past, and found the answer of Ara's puzzle.

Because that, I whisper my promise to him. That I'll never let him go again. I lost him twice already. And the last one freakin' me out. I don't want in that horrible situation again. I know that he doesn't like promise, but I'll try really hard to try my best in our relation, no matter the name, and do every single thing he wants if that requests make him happy.

We used to love, please don't make me cry
To me, it's only you
When I close my eyes, I see you
When I block my ears, I hear you
Please don't leave me

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Neil's POV

The person who became a light in my dark life, such a precious person
A day passes and another passes and Iong for you more, even as I sing this song

I stare to wooden ceiling above me. I'm so tired to move arm which wrap my waist tightly. My heart beat so hard when I know where did I sleep whole night. I suddenly froze when I feel his skin to mine, his body spooned mine.

I admite, that because of him, I can see the light in my dark life. Because of him, I can pass my days without any mess. Because of him, I can feel the warm for being human again.

I move slide and look at his sleeping face, and release a deep sigh.
My chest feels really heavy when I see him breath so calm in front of me.
Because of him too, I feel the pain of loving someone. Because of him too, I feel regret of hoping someone to be mine.

I know that I misunderstood his situation. I know that Ara apologized to me for her wrong conclution.
But I can't forget what I saw and heard in this place.

You might come back, because you might return, again today, I wait for you
You don't know, you don't know how much I'm hurting, even as I sing this song

I move to the side of my body, and pretend to sleep, when I feel he wake up and look at me. Actually, the pain in my head coming back slowly, so I don't get all word he whispered to me.

Maybe I fall a sleep for real, when I find myself with oversize t-shirt and sweatpants, and I hear someone step in and walk closer to the bed.

"Neil, do you wake up?" His voice so soft in my ear, and he shake my shoulder slowly.
"Here's some breakfast. You need to eat before drink the pills."

We used to love, please don't make me cry
To me, it's only you
When I close my eyes, I see you
When I block my ears, I hear you
Please don't leave me

Please, don't make me cry, Phi.....

I keep close my eyes, when this familiar feel strike my heart.
He used to do that to me, when I feel sick or just isn't in good shape.

Please.....

But my tears doesn't listen to me.

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Mark's POV

I take a chair and sit in front of him. I see a tears falls down onto his cheek. I whip that tears, but it keep fall.
Many times I whip his tears, but it looks like don't want to stop fall.

Seeing Neil's tears keep falls like that hurt my heart. Every tears like knife which slice my heart layer by layer. It's really hurt.

I can't hold myself anymore when I see his body shaking. I lay beside him and pull him to my embrace. I hug him so tight.

"I'm sorry, Neil. I'm sorry......"

And my heart break when I hear his soft cry near my ear.

Neil......