It takes courage to say goodbye for good, it takes strength to let go of someone you know will never be yours, but for some reason will always have a piece of you, a piece that you know you'll never get back. It happened, finally, the day I finally found it in me to say goodbye to you, to let go of you and wish you luck, because no matter how much you took from me, I will always want you to succeed, to be happy; I guess that's what love is really about.
I told you that I deserved better, and that you deserved to know what love truly was, because you were never able to truly love me; I've finally come to terms with that knowledge, and I'm proud to have told you that if we ever meet again, I really hoped it would be with a smile.
Since that day, it feels like a weight was finally removed from my shoulders, and I've learned to live with the fact that you are somewhere, happy with someone else, and that only god will ever know how much I wanted it to be you. But alas, life is cruel for a reason, and maybe in another life, we will be meant to be, and fate will not divide our paths. I believe we could be happy.
But no matter how much I let you go, I still avoid you because if I don't, it makes me wonder about you, and it makes me feel lonely, to think about you, to know about you, and know that you never wonder about me. I think one day, I'll come to terms with that too.
Just know that I survived, and you can survive too.
-Survivor
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A Restless Mind
RandomHere are thoughts from a restless mind. This is the only way I know how to not drown in them. And maybe you will agree, letting me know that I'm not alone. Or maybe no one will, but it gives me peace to know that at least someone knows my thoughts...
