Being Perfect

Chapter 7 - Cookies

Chapter 7 Nichole

I spent the whole week hanging out after work with Austin. We went out to eat and to the movies a couple times. I was hardly home, but today I didn't have to work and I was enjoying my day off. Everyone else seemed to be busy and out of the house. I put the rest of the cookie batter in the oven saving Louis a bowl and slipping it into the back of the fridge. I sighed as I realized what I was doing. No matter how hard I tried I always found myself thinking about him. I leaned against the counter and as if I called for him, Louis entered the kitchen in only his boxers. Heat flushed to my cheeks as his eyes met mine in surprise. "Oh. I didn't know you'd be here." He said quickly, but made no move to go change. "I figured you'd be with Austin." He spat in disgust. I rolled my eyes.

"Here we go." I mumbled and he scoffed.

"Whatever Nic." I closed my eyes and faced the oven. He sighed. "Are you making your famous cookies?" I turned around and leaned across the counter across from him.

"Yep." I said popping the 'p'. "There's cookie dough left for you in the back of the fridge." His face lit up as he reached around me to get in the fridge. I tried to calm my heart beat down at the proximity of his bare chest, but this is Louis. As if he could feel the tension he realized how close we were, but didn't move. I slowly slid out of his arms, letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding.

"So what's it like being in love again?" I choked on the air.

"W-what?" I gasped.

"I think you heard me." He said softly. He wasn't meeting my eyes, just staring at the ground.

"Louis, I don't love Austin." He laughed.

"As if." He shook his head. "You're gone for hours with him. When you come back you're happier than I've seen you in years."

"Maybe because I'm actually getting attention." I whispered and his piercing sea blue eyes stared at me. "I'm going to turn on some music while I wait for the cookies. Do you care?" I asked breaking the spell. He shook his head and grabbed his bowl of cookie dough and slid onto a bar stool. I plugged my phone into the jack and pressed shuffle. I froze when the song came on, but acted like it was important to me.

See I can't wake up I'm living a nightmare

That keeps playing over again,

Locked in a room so hung up on you

And you're cool with just being friends,

Left on the sidelines

Stuck at a red light

Waiting for my time,

And I can't see,

Why don't you love me

I tried to steady my breathing. If he didn't catch on to my mental break down then I wouldn't have to worry about explaining it to him. I closed my eyes and let the music flow through me.

Touch me, Tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe,

And why don't you love me baby,

Open up your heart tonight

Cause I could be all that you need,

Why don't you love me,

Why don't you love me,

See I'm just too scared to tell you the truth

Cause my heart ache can't take any more,

I looked up at Louis to find him already looking at me. I tried to keep it together and I turned away from his questioning glare. I saw him out of the corner of my eye get out of his chair and make his way over to me. He pressed his body against mine and lifted my chin up with his cool fingers. "What's wrong, love?" I shook my head and continued to look away from him.

Broken and bruised longing for you

And I don't know what I'm waiting for,

Left on the sidelines

Stuck at a red light

Waiting for my time,

So just tell me,

Why don't you love me,

Touch me, Tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe,

And why don't you love me baby,

Open up your heart tonight,

Cause I could be all that you need,

Oh,

"Nic. Please." I looked into his pleading eyes. I sighed and laid my head hesitantly against his chest. He tensed up at first, but then seemed to catch up with what was happening and wrapped his arms around my waist.

Why don't you give me a reason,

Please tell me the truth,

You know that I'll keep believing

Til I'm with you,

So why don't you love me,

Kiss me,

I can feel your heart tonight it's killing me,

Louis pulled away and kissed the top of my hair. "I love you Nic." I started sobbing into his bare chest. I missed him so much and we both just couldn't agree that we loved each other and it tears me apart when I'm alone or in his presence. He lifted my chin up and was slowly bringing his lips to meet mine. I missed this. The beeper went off for the stove and he backed away from me so that I could get the cookies out.

"They're done!" I yelled in fake excitement to cover up my disappointment.

A/N: I AM SO SORRY THAT IT'S TAKING ME FOREVER TO UPDATE. My life is so chaotic right now between my high school classes and college classes I barely have time to write a chapter let alone upload it. Along with some other family issues I just never have the time and I'm constantly on the go, but I promise I haven't abandoned you guys so P L E A S E stick with me!

Love you guys,

Kalisha