HYYH The Notes Chronologically

Jimin, 16 May, Year 22

Hoseok hyung lived in a rooftop apartment at the end of a narrow alley. It was very high. When I visited the one-room apartment, he'd brag about how it was the highest room in the city. He bragged that he could see everything, every place, from his rooftop room. From the window, we could see the trains and the train tracks and the containers. Namjoon hyung lived in one of those. If I moved my gaze down a little, I could see the school we all used to attend.

After locating the school, I drew my gaze to the opposite side of the city. A line of apartments rested at the bottom of the mountain. There was my - no - my parent's house. They were looking for me. When I ran away from the hospital without a word they were contacted. I didn't have the confidence to face them. I couldn't go home yet. That didn't mean I wanted to return to the hospital, but I had nowhere to go and no money. Hyung had told me to follow him, and he led me here - Hyung's house.

I looked back to the apartment buildings. I had to return eventually. I had to tell my parents I wasn't going back to the hospital. I inhaled sharply and then slowly exhaled. It felt like the mere thought could trigger another seizure. I didn't trust myself anywhere other than at the hospital. I could be rushed there again. I was so afraid. I couldn't stand it.