Fire meet gasoline (Skeet Ulrich)

13.

Another one. 

Skeet's P.O.V.

I've been acting since I was nineteen. That's thirty years. I played many roles. Psycho killer, policeman, abductor, gang member, whatever else. I had to play I was in love. I got married two times, got engaged very quickly after short relationship, I had lot of women in my life. I'm almost fifty and I thought I had experienced everything. But two months ago has everything changed. She walked into my life quietly and unexpected, but within few days she was the biggest fire, storm, breath of fresh air, tsunami, all four elements embodied in tiny body. 

What was the most overwhelming thing for me : she didn't know. She didn't see what impact she had on people. How everyone instantly fell for her the moment she smiled at them. How everyone listened to all she said and actually paid attention to each word. How everyone was charmed by her beauty and grace, by the absolute kindness and helpfulness that sparkled through every skin pore of hers. She was herself around everyone, she didn't need to pretend. 

That day she cried about her ex, I saw her in a different light. She was not a girl anymore to me, she was a woman. Grown woman with broken heart and only one desire : to feel truly loved again. And till the day I die I'll remember how was she looking at me with teary eyes, wet cheeks and trembling chin. Her long brown hair was messed up, some of those strands were glued to her cheeks. She sat there, looked crestfallen, just in ordinary black shorts and black tank top, without trying to look flawless, without constant effort of impressing my persona. She was just herself in whatever situation life brought her.

And God, she's so beautiful. Of course, I'm a man, that's what I noticed first. Surface. Long hair, slim figure, flawless legs and breasts to die for. But that's not enough. Not for me anymore. I'm not twenty and I don't want just another dumb model or something. And she is both, beauty and brains. I know I can talk to her about anything and she'll listen. 

What I have felt with her ... it was something new, different, exciting. It's like when you taste the most exotic sweet fruit and suddenly, you don't want to eat anything else, just this, with each bite you want more and more. I wanted her more. To be with her, to feel her presence, to touch her ... not just in a friendly way. I want to give her all the love she deserves. Shower her with attention, loving words, touches and kisses. Cause that is what she deserves, to be cherished like a queen. My queen ... 

When I saw her with KJ, my heart stopped. God knows I love that boy like my son, but whenever I see him with her, I'm totally falling apart and I tend to forget how to act or even how to live. My mind goes black and I want to beat up everyone who touch her. I know they sleep with each other. That's what is making me go crazy right now and all the time. I should've be the one, her only one. 

But I fucked up. I terribly fucked up. I don't know what I was thinking, I don't drink normally, it's always one beer when I watch football or so, but this time, I was so teed off, that I drank huge amount of God knows what and it burned everything in me, except the memory of her with KJ. And when I came to their apartment and she stood there, just in towel, I couldn't contain myself anymore. She was scared, but I wanted her, for a moment I wanted her just for me, to hug me, kiss me and moan for me - because of me. I knew, I saw it in her eyes that she wanted me, so it was mutual, but she didn't want me to do it this way. And those words I said to her ... I don't know where it came from and I'll hate myself forever for doing it. I think it was just my hurt ego, that I wasn't the one who makes her happy ...

My phone buzzed again. Corin, I know. I don't like what I'm doing to her. But the relationship with her is the only thing that can keep me near to Vicki. To be really honest, I don't care about her anymore. Our "relationship" was sex, vacations and shopping since the beginning. I didn't mind at first, I wasn't looking for some intellectual. She was good in bed, she did what I said to her. My kids don't like her, I knew it from the beginning, but I wanted just sex and stuff. Nothing serious. But then Vicki came and even my kids fell for her. Naiia couldn't stop talking about her, I know they are in touch and Jake was pretty charmed as well.