Letters to Jaemin

Letter | 18

Letter #17

Dear Jaemin,

          This is it Jaemin, the day of our graduation ball. I was actually hesitating if I should go because I'm not confident enought to show myself wearing a dress and not a usual school uniform.

         I was so shy to show myself to you. What if I don't look good, what if I don't look enough? I'm thinking about different possibilities of you hating me after seeing what I'm wearing and how the way I look with it.

         I'm wearing a royal blue below the knee dress, it was not showy like other dresses, it's simple but it looks elegant. And I think I don't deserve to wear this dress.

          Skai was the one who brought this and just gave it to me the day before the grad-ball.

         At the moment, I'm staring at myself in the mirror. My hair was tied into a bun but few strands were hanging near my face.

          I was about to backed out when I heard a knock on my bedroom door. I thought it was only Mark so I went straight to the door and opened it without hesitations.

          And then there was you. You're wearing a very elegant tuxedo with a blue necktie. I stared at you for I don't know how long until you smiled and I realized what I was wearing.

          And so suddenly I closed the door. I was extremely shy at that time. I hear you knocked continuously but I didn't let you in.

          Then I heard you saying that you'll just wait for me downstairs. It was a relief for me though... So I opened the door to check if you already left and to my surprise, you're still there.

          And from the moment I opened the door, you barged inside my room and stared at me as if I'm the most beautiful view that you've ever seen that day. My cheeks flushed in deep shade of pink and you just let out a soft chuckle.

          'you look fantastic tonight' I remembered you saying those words to me. I just gave you a slight tap in your shoulder before I went outside.

          You followed me downstairs and there, I found my brother taking lots of pictures with his lovey-dovey. I just smiled at them, they look cute together, I hope they can be with each other until the end.

         When we arrived in our school, you held my hand and we run until we reached the school gymnasium. Jeno was there too, he's wearing almost the same tuxedo as you do yet he's wearing a red necktie.

          I can still remember the time you asked me for a dance. It was a very romantic scenario, and I had wished that time would stop so we could dance forever.

          We danced in every song until we got tired. I was so happy back then, I thought I was already in heaven at that time so I made my mind and decided to finally confessed to you.

          I walked through your direction, and when I'm about to approach you, I suddenly felt dizzy. I can feel the shortness of my breath and then so suddenly, I collapsed.

          And that was the very last thing I remembered from that day. Although it ended like that, I'm still happy because you're able to make my first and last graduation ball wonderful and magical.

-Minji