Kora Kaghaz

Tanhai

Akailapun bhi kya khoob hai. Tanhai toh maano aankh kholnay say aankh mooundnay tak ki saathi thehar chuki hai. Khokla sa karnay ki taqut bhi rakhti. Rahut ka samaan bhi bun jati hai. Iss khamoshi main mano khud ko paana bhi seekha hai aur sab kho kar khud ko khona bhi hai aaya.

Gilah bhi hai iss say, shikwa bhi hai iss say, saza bhi hai iss say toh mano maza bhi hai iss say. Dost yar hum ko bananay aatay naheen. Rishtay hain say nibhayay jaatay naheen. Saathi toh kismut ki lakeeroon main hai he naheen. Aur khamosh lumhay hum ko bhatay naheen. Jo chundh hum rahi hain un peh kartay hain youn jaan nisaar, kay phir na jawaabi ehsasaat honay kay bahanay bhi samajh aatay naheen. Aitabaar toh khair ab sab say he uth chuka hai kuch aisa kay shayud koi koshish bhi karay toh khud ko bhaaghta paoun. Dil behlanay ko shayud khayaal yehi acha hai kyun kay koshish kay layuk hum toh kabhi thay he naheen.

Unginut raabtoon ka shauq na kabhi tha, na kabhi ho ga. Hum toh azeez-o-aqarub ki chothi mehfil sajanay kay qail hain ji. Per afsoos azeez bhi un jangalon main bastay hain jin ka raasta hum ko ab yaad naheen hai rakhna. Phir shikwa karain kis say? Khuda peh toh imaan dughmughanay say raha. Imtihaan bhi lay raha hai gar woh toh uss ka yeh banda pashtanay say raha. Log peetay hain ghum bhulanay ko, hum choohtay naheen ussay jis ki ho manahi. Naheen chahiyeh koi yar, rishtadaar, humrahi. Hum ko kaafi hai hamari yeh tanhai.

Bheeghnay do panoun ko, ab naheen sunana kisi ko dil ka haal. Hai yeh itni bhi barhi kya? Kay hotay ho youn bayhaal. Jab sunanay walay nay zakhum naheen daikhnay aur haath naheen hai thaamna, phir kyun karain ussay sunatay waqt barbaad. Rehnay daytay hain iss daastan-e-qaid ko andhairon azaad. Mana kay koi na saath tha, na hai, na ho ga. Per ab aur kar bhi kya saktay hain. Rona bhi ab toh aata naheen hai. Aao chalo bund muthi ko khol, khul kay hanstay hain. Dar bhi lugta hai kay ik din yehi khamoshi khamosh na kara day, per shayud ab aisay he sakoon naseeb ho, so banatay hain iss dar ko dua. Muskura kay haath jorh rihai kay he talubgaar bun jatay hain, aisay he jaan main jaan phir laatay hain.