They were on the road shortly after making good time. It was Dane who drove as usual. Jessica rather relax and listen to the radio, or she would read one of her many cheesy lesbian romance novels.
Dane was completely enamoured by Jessica's appearance. Jessica at content beside her in the dress, hair fully down and wearing makeup. "You're so cute." Dane also knew it was probably the last time she'd see Jessica in a dress.
"...Thank you," Jessica humbly accepted as she resumed her book.
There was so much depth which Jessica's outer image deflected. "On the way back, let's stop off at a book store. The author wrote a sequel to this one." Jessica slowly turned the page, lost in the extra romance.
"You know there is actually a LGBT bookstore two miles from my moms' house. I used to hang around in there. I mean, it's not as big as the one near campus; then again I haven't been there in almost a decade, Dane answered resting her hand on Jessica's leg.
The hand was held by Jessica and she continually read the book. "I brought my digital cam, mind if the four of us take a few pictures?"
"Sure that would be great! Any special reason?" Dane pried.
Jessica grew quiet actually blushing. "I like taking pictures of things we do, I'm making a digital scrap book. I want to remember myself in this dress. You know for...when we get married we can show everyone." Jessica spoke her reasoning barely above a whisper.
A serene image of them standing in a chapel embraced Dane. She felt the softness of Jessica's hand within hers. They once more shared a girl moment, only this time it was much closer than either had expected.
"Jessica , I'm gonna asked you again, will you marry me?" Dane whispered as she sympathetically cried in Jessica's admission.
The book fell from Jessica's fingers as she fully took in the question. Jessica fought to remain calm; she stared at the book on the ground, feeling a shiver as Dane's fingers caressed hers.
Jessica looked to Dane's beautifully tearing face, she wept so innocently in the desire to be with Jessica .
"Yes, of course my Dane, I will marry you, again and again. I love you so much," Jessica cried.
Oh my god," Dane gasped.
"And I'll be Jessica Wong...it sounds destined doesn't it," Jessica asked, leaning over and kissing Dane.
"We'll be...wives," Dane forced.
"Wives, now that's some crazy shit. But what if I don't make a good wife for you? Or if I don't make enough money after I graduate, then we'll be living in some dingy apartment over a convenient store. What if don't turn you on sexually anymore after we get married. Or--"
The car sharply pulled to the side of the road, and Jessica was shushed by Dane's lips against hers. She held Jessica's face, flicking the tears with her thumbs and smiled. "Babe it's okay; we have all the time in the world to get married, and you'll always turn me on." She lightly kissed Jessica's trembling lips once more
Dane held Jessica's hand as she pulled back onto the road. They drove the rest of the way in near complete silence, only smiling at the thought of marriage.
The extended silence only manifested the anxieties within the two. It was Jessica who broke the solitude.
I'm going to be your wifey Dane. We'll be...a family. I'm scared Dane, I've wanted to reach this level so badly, but I'm scared."
"Jessica , if there's one thing I've learned from you, its life is full of fear, and when you really love someone or something against that fear, there's nothing stopping you from overcoming it.
I'm scared to death to ever lose you, I'm afraid of taking that walk down the aisle.
But Jessica I love you and that's why I can smile. I know that no matter how bad things are, you'll always await me on the other side. I'm afraid, but I love you too much to be scared."
"God Dane, that was so poetic. Do straight couples go through this?" Jessica asked, smiling in Dane's confession.
"Well it's a hell of a lot easier for them to get married. In the same light they don't seem to respect the sanctity of marriage; all you have to do is look up their divorce rate," Dane reminded.
"I guess it's true. You never really appreciate something like marriage, until you're outright denied that right. Our government is built off hypocrisy; but what do I know, I'm just a dumb dyke from the hood," Jessica related, resting her head against Dane.
"Then I'm the snooty lesbian who's madly in love with you," Dane airily added.
"We do make a couple don't we; a hood rat and a princess with a sweet booty." Jessica was playfully shoved away at the mere word.
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Friendship to Lovers!
Fanfiction"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." "There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness."
