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As soon as he fell asleep, I went up to get his things from the living room. I grabbed his coat and his bag, bringing it inside the room.
I don't usually check his things because he doesn't bring them often. However, I got curious today. I felt something inside his coat, it was like a small box. When I got it, I couldn't believe my eyes. Why does he have cigarettes when he doesn't even smoke? This is not his.
I got his phone and tried to unlock it, but the pin was incorrect. He changed it again for the 4th time this month? I entered the pin again, but it was still incorrect. No one would know it now. Is it because I kept opening his phone and he might be hiding something?
The next morning, I found myself in his arms while watching a movie together. He started stroking my nape and hair which made me uncomfortable.
Junhui doesn't usually do these things with me and would just hug me gently. Since when does he do this with me? I looked at him, but he continued staring at the movie.
"Hey, Jun. Why did you have cigarettes in your coat?"
His eyes widened in shock, but he didn't look at me. "Um...I d-don't know. W-why'd you ask?" He stuttered and he can't even look at me in the eye. I know he's lying to me.
"Did you smoke with someone? Did you also change your phone pin because you're hiding something from me?" I asked, moving away from his arms.
"y/n, you think too much. I'm leaving, don't bother waiting." He stood up then left the house.
Lately, our conversations end like it's our last already. Junhui always ends it like that and it hurts. I know where he went, he's at his friend's house getting drunk.
It was almost midnight and I called him at least 20 times already, but still no response. He's too drunk to even answer my call.
I wonder who he's calling 'baby' now, it had always been me. When he's looking at those strangers there, I hope he won't forget about me.
He didn't sleep with me the night after that and for the next few nights. One day, he came back home from meeting with his friends. I came up to him and stopped him from walking.
"Where have you been sleeping? It always kept me up at night."
"Somewhere."
"You're not making this easier. Just admit it, I know you found someone new." I hit his chest. "Tell me, Jun. I want to know the truth, I want to know who she is. She's prettier, right? Is this some kind of beauty contest? Who do you love, me or that girl?"
Junhui didn't say anything; instead, he got his things, left and never came back. If only I could say the things I would want to say before, this wouldn't happen.
He loves her then.
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Seungkwan's pov
My girlfriend kept talking about her ex for the past month, but I don't mind because I love her. I've noticed a few things about her, though.
She kept locking herself in her room. She also stopped using my shirt that she always borrowed and it made me confused.
Whenever we fight, she would scream at me. She'd even call me crazy, but I'd just laugh. She becomes angrier, so I would kiss her to stop our argument.
I tried to talk to her, but she would just push me away so I stay away. I give all my love to her, but she'll just take it and won't return the love back. It's a give and take thing without any return.
Then let's play a little game with her. I knocked on her door, "Yah, let's eat." When she opened the door, I went in and locked it again before she could leave.
"Hey, what's wrong with you?" I asked her.
"I'm fine, Seungkwan."
Seungkwan? She used to call me 'baby' but she's calling me by my name now. I did it first on purpose for my little game, I guess she beat me to it.
"You still love him, do you? Just say that you want me out of your life, I want to know." I was angry, not feeling sad at all.
"I-i don't know if I still feel something for you."
"Then just let me go!" I shouted, grabbed my things and left. I never came back to that house again. If only I had found a way to make her stay with me, this wouldn't happen.
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Here they go again.
Seungkwan and y/n felt like they were fading away from each other. They both saw their exes together and it gave them a weird feeling. They haven't been talking that much and it was killing them.
They were both sitting on the couch, staring at the black screen with a distance between them. "y/n, I'm sorry." Seungkwan started.
"For what?" y/n asked.
"I know you feel the same, but I think I'm going crazy." He pulled his hair, tears were already falling.
y/n saw him crying and was very concerned. "Kwanie, what's wrong?"
"When I saw her, I remembered our memories. I remembered her touch, the way her eyes looked at me, the songs that made her cry and what I felt inside when I saw her. I feel so bad for saying this." He spilt all his burdens in his mind.
She became quiet, trying to understand him. Seungkwan started crying a lot, "Go ahead, y/n. Break my heart and show me what love really is."
He held y/n's hand and tried to slap his face, but she held back. Instead, she hugged him gently, letting him cry on her shoulder.
"Let's just forget about the past, Kwanie. I know we can make this last like we planned."
"I'm sorry for being like this. Now I get what my ex felt back then and I don't like it." y/n felt a bit hurt by him talking about his ex because she remembered her ex as well.
She felt as if she went back to the time where in Junhui left her and she doesn't want to leave him. Seungkwan also felt as if he went back to the time he left his ex, but he's in her place now.
The only difference is...
Seungkwan doesn't want to let y/n go.
"I want you the way you are and I need you to stay. Remember the words you told me, Kwanie? You said you'll love me until the day I'll die. I gave my everything to you because you made me believe that I was yours, so I'm never letting you get away."
He wasn't arguing with her, he just couldn't hold his burdens anymore. He told y/n all of his burdens and he felt so sorry, but he never actually stopped loving her.
This time, they both knew that they won't ever let each other go. They fixed themselves by opening up to one another.
An argument can be fixed together, but feelings can only be fixed alone.
After saying all those to him, he stopped crying and thought of something. "You want to know something?"
"Yes, I want to know." She replied.
"Remember the words I told you, y/n? I'll keep it and I mean it."
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