Strong Love

Chapter 32

**Cali's POV**

My eyes fluttered open to be met with the harsh sunlight. I sit up as my eyes adjust and scan the room. I look over to a chair in the corner to see Kian on his phone. My hand shot up to my aching head. 

"Kian, what happened?" I grown slowly moving off the bed and onto my feet. The constant throbbing of my head caused me to have to sit back down. A sigh of pain and utter confusion left my lips as Kian sat beside me. "Are you alright?" He asked placing his hand on my back. I slightly moved away from him and his gaze dropped form me to the floor. "No, my head hurts like hell and I have no idea where I am. I'm so confused right now. I just want to go home."  The sound of home sounds so good right now, and I don't mean California home. I mean home, home. Back with my family. 

"You don't remember anything?" He asked with a concerned look spread across his face. "No Kian, nothing. Now could you tell me what's going on?" 

Once again his gaze fell to the floor. "Last night Jc and I got into a fight." He explained in a calm voice. "And things got pretty bad." 

"W-what?" I say shaking my head. "You guys are best friends, why would you get into a fight?" I say not even being able to process what he's saying.

There was a short moment of silence before he spoke up "It's complected." He finally said leaving me even more clueless and stressed out then I already was. 

"Spit it out Kian." I say getting impatient. His eyes wondered around the room and then finally back to mine. "Jc he, he had another girl in his hotel room and I got protective."

"Why where you getting protective? Was get doing anything with her?" I asked upset that Jc would even be hanging  out with any other girls considering this was supposed to be the time we spent together. 

"No they where just drinking alcohol and Jc was a bit drunk. He said-. " He stopped just when he was going to say something. "He said what?" I said wanting him to continue. "He said the reason I'm so protective over you is b-because I um." There was another pause and I was beginning to get worried. "Because why Kian!?" "Because I'm your best friend."

I furrowed my eyebrows "Yeah, isn't that what best friends do?" I replied looking at him. I could tell there was something else on his mind but I just decided to drop it because I think I've had enough confusion and stress for one morning.

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I went back to my own hotel room. I ran the steaming hot shower and got out of my tight dress from last night and got in. I washed off all my foundation and ruined eyeliner. After a good 10 minutes of practically just staring emotionless at the tiled wall I decided to use up what little energy I had and get out of the shower. 

As I stepped out I couldn't help but catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I stared at my washed out face with the remains for my mascara around the bottom of my eyes. I looked awful and felt awful. I'm sick of all of this. I'm sick of high expectations and cold late nights, my dreams being crushed and hopeless people that don't seem to quite understand. Everything that I've been through here has been to please everyone else and make sure they're all happy. And by here I don't just mean New York. I mean California too. God I love these people but they just don't seem to understand hoe emotionally draining it is. I try to keep these beautiful people happy when I can't even keep myself happy. And I'm afraid that soon enough they're all going to give up on me because I can no longer live up to that expectation. I'm afraid that everyone I love will soon enough hate me and I'll have no one because honestly I already feel alone. 

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**Kian's POV**

why didn't you just tell her the truth you fucking idiot! The voice in my head said. "Because when she finds out, she's going to hate me. I have a girlfriend, she has a boyfriend and I'm not supposed to feel this way!" I shout only just realizing that the voice is in my head and people are going to thing I'm crazy. 

I can't feel this way but I can't keep on lying to myself either. I know I like Cali, I've felt this way for a long time. I used to have the biggest crush on her before I moved away but I knew that she'd only ever think of me as her best friend. When I hugged her the first day she was in California, that's when the sparks flew for me and my feelings for her all seemed to just crash into again. Of course I wasn't going to tell he because I've got Andrea but I couldn't help it. That's why I've been so protective over her this entire time.   But how do I tell h-.

I was pulled out for thought as there was a knock on the door. I hesitantly got up to answer it, I fucking hope it's not Jc. I opened the door and looked down to see Cali standing there with a saddened look upon her face.

She exhaled loudly looking to the ground. "Kian, can you please just take me home?"