If ever someone is reading this piece of shit, hello. Help me tell them I'm tired with everything. I don't know if I can still keep it inside. I don't know who to talk with since nobody cares and nobody notice.
To DSM, Hi mahal, I don't know if buhay ka pa nga talaga or patay ka na talaga. I feel that you're alive but I will never bother to ask. If that is what you want, if you want me gone so be it. I'm tired. Not by loving you but to all the lies all of you created. I still love you and I will always be. You know that you can still find me if you still wanna go back. If... I already know that I am now nothing to you, but always remember that I love you. I love you to the moon and back.
To NZ, I trusted you but you keep on telling lies. Your facade isn't really hard to read. Being dumb doesn't suit you. You know things but you keep on lying. I tried being a good friend but you keep on being a manipulative bitxh. Incase you need your little toy to help you, you know that you can message me anytime right? I still treat you a friend but I can't trust you.
To NC/Every SL admin, I ain't some kind of monster you need to be scared of. I'm a brat, yes but that's it. Wag niyo naman sakin isisi na wala ng kwenta yung gc since I tried my best irevive yun pero lahat ng gawin ko makikitaan niyo lang ng mali. Sabi ko nga hindi na ako makiki elam, kaya niyo na yun but in the end wala din naman nangyari so sakin pa din ba dapat ang sisi? Try asking yourself kung may ginawa ka din ba para maging active ng matagal ang gc or kung nagpasok ka lang at pimabayaan mo na.
To FD&AR, my favorite loveteam. Stay strong. No. One fan niyo ko. So ayun dont be a glitch okies? And FD, I slept. It really is true that someone sent an email last 15.
Lastly, to my family, I tried so hard trying to survive. No one seems to notice. No one seems to care. No one even tried to ask. The pressure is building up. I'm still trying to keep my sanity intact. I can't handle everything. I'm still trying to be fine. I wanna graduate on time but they keep on stopping me. I tried doing things you want but it makes me struggle. Struggle to breath, struggle to live. I'm tired. Take care of star for me. I still trying to survive dont worry.
BTS told armys to love theirself. I tried and still trying. Sorry if it'll make you hate them but they are the ones keeping me sane. I'll purple them.
Everyone, J loves you. DSM, I love you, forever and always
