Oneshots || Tyrus

Stardust

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Cyrus rested his head back on the worn picnic blanket, gazing dreamily up at the stars.

TJ had invited him to stargaze for his birthday, insisting that he didn't want a big party. He wanted to celebrate his special day with his special person, Cyrus.

They had been best friends for just over a year, both oblivious to each others growing devotion to the other.

"Do you think 14 will feel different?" TJ asked softly, breaking the silence. He lied down next to Cyrus then, their shoulders just barely brushing.

"I'm not sure, but Buffy told me she felt more grown up, more herself" Cyrus sighed, his eyes flickering across the various constellations.

TJ broke eye contact with the the sky then, glancing over at the younger boy. When his eyes wandered over to Cyrus's, his breath hitched. His deep brown eyes were crystallized by the stars up above, pools of the galaxy dancing beneath his lashes.

He quickly snapped his head back to face the sky, flustered by the sudden butterflies flooding his stomach.

"Do you think I will?" TJ asked, his voice barely above a whisper.

Now it was Cyrus's turn to tilt his head towards the voice, his heart rate accelerating ever so slightly as he caught sight of TJ's eyes. Stars dotted his irises like sparkles on a jade stone. His heart thudded in his ears as he returned his gaze to the sky.

"How could you be more yourself?" Cyrus paused, "How are you not yourself?"

TJ's chest tightened. He wanted Cyrus to know; oh god how he wanted to explain. But as he parted his lips to speak, no words filled the air. His heart ached at the thought of losing Cyrus, his person. The one person who saw through his tough guy facade, the only person who could listen to him talk about his stuff without laughing... or leaving.

He startled out of his worried thoughts as he felt a hand rest on top of his.

"You can tell me anything, you know that right Teej?" His heart skipped a beat at the sound of one of his beloved nicknames. "I am the only person you can talk to like this" Cyrus said, nudging him gently with his shoulder.

"Well..... it's just that I-I feel different sometimes." TJ began, stumbling over his words slightly in anticipation of what came next.

"How so?" Cyrus asked softly, gently squeezing TJ's hand in reassurance.

TJ sighed, accepting the inevitable and diving into his explanation.

"It's just, I have these feelings for this one person, and if I were to ever tell anyone I'm afraid that they'd never treat me the same way again. Like I wasn't.... different."

"I understand" Cyrus started, "I know what it feels like to be an outsider, to constantly wonder what would happen if people knew-"

"But you don't!" TJ exclaimed, his sudden raise in volume making the smaller boy recoil quickly, retracting his hand from its grasp.

"I'm sorry Cy, I just mean... I like this person a lot a lot and I'm so afraid that they'll never be able to look at me the same way again if they knew. Like, look up at the sky,"

Cyrus obeyed, locking eyes with the sprawling constellations above.

"When I think of them, I think of the stars" TJ continued, his voice trembling slightly as he regained his confidence, "I think of the infinite dots of bright light that are the times they've made me smile, or laugh. I think of the wispy clouds of fluff that are the softness of their character and the chaos of their hair. I think of the darkness surrounding the stars that balances the sight, that is the control of their voice, of their wisdom. I think of the vastness of the sky up above, of the infinite possibilities that threaten to swallow me whole. I think of my endless love for them, of my endless love for you."

TJ turned to look at Cyrus, shocked to see a soft smile spreading across his lips. He returned his gaze to the sky, feeling a familiar hand sliding into his own, intertwining their fingers.

"And I you" Cyrus exhaled, his eyes still fixed on the galaxy.

But TJ had turned his face once more to stare at Cyrus, his galaxy.

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•A/N•
Thank you all for returning to read again!! I cannot express my gratitude enough that you've all showed any interest in my stories, it means the world to me :). As always, please comment any advice or general thoughts on this piece so I can continue to improve in the future. I hope you liked it! I love my soft boys <3