Met Your Match

Rule #24

It'd been a week since I exploded at Zillion and told him about the baby. Afterwards I locked myself home and ignored everybody really just wanting to be alone. I never planned on telling him because I wanted it to just past but seeing him just reminded me of the life we had created.

I know god had his reasons and probably thought it was for the best to not make me a mom. Zillion found a way to contact me every hour of everyday checking up on me and asking to talk but I just left it on delivered and ate away my sorrow.

"ARIIIII OPEN UP" I looked out my window and Kam, Kash And Zillion we're outside. "Please just go guys I'm fine I swear" They all shook there head not moving. "Bitch we still ghetto no matter where you live don't let us start hopping shit" I sighed knowing Kash would do shit like that so I just went To open the door.

They came in with groceries and got to cooking "Can we talk like real talk it's needed" Zillion pulled me to the side. "Fine let's go to the bedroom just don't too much this time" I couldn't ignore him forever like I planned to he was set in stone of being apart of my life forever. "Can we start with when did you find out because not too long ago were you fighting my ex."

"The week before I left for my vacation I didn't tell anyone just because I hadn't even been to the doctors yet. I keep thinking maybe if I did I'd still be pregnant now" He rubbed my shoulder. "Don't say that just because we can't work together meant nothing for our child. Shit I'm sure that's what we're missing but you know not telling me was wrong Ari" He was right there was no arguing with that.

"I just needed to deal with it first but you were just coming at me calling me a bitch and a hoe. I damn near almost punched you and that's word to everything I love" I fought females with no pressure it was easy but males that was different.

"Well I'm glad you didn't but I just couldn't believe you were on the right path and then just went back because of what....we couldn't make it as a couple. Blame that shit on yourself I tried the hardest you just come up with every excuse to be with that lane ass nigga" I looked at me He was riling me up just like he always did.

"You see I'm calm but just want to start with me bro get the fuck out of my face. I'm fucking doing what I want to not by what you want me to. Either accept it or kill yourself" I stormed off locking myself in the bathroom. "Babe open up I already cussed out Zillion ass" I opened the door for her and she sat next to me comforting me.

"Sis you really need to go to the doctor and stop putting on this front. A therapists cool and it's in the right direction but you have to go sis please" I looked at her just balling my eyes out. "I'm beyond angry and just want everybody to leave me bro like honestly. I make my own decisions in my life can't y'all see that. I'm not a child and I'll go through everything by myself."

The next day my head was pounding but my emotion switched and now I just wanted to cry all day. Marcus checked on me and called me every so often making sure I was alright but he couldn't come over because it was his time with his son. "Why don't you just come over I don't want you in your house all by yourself."

"No enjoy your time please I swear I'm beyond fine it just takes time to bounce back that's all." I smiled once he put his son in the camera. "Please look he all happy and stuff once he seen you and I've missed you. We can have a little dinner together it'll be cute" I gave in and said I'll spend the week there too. Marcus was my outlet and I just felt relieved even though my therapist said it's not best and to cut him out but why would I cut out the one thing that switched my happiness on.