Inharmonious // j.b

Thank You Jason

Hey hey! I think about two more chapters and this book is ending. I love all the people that continued reading the book even when I would always forget to update thank you so much.

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It's been over 4 hours since I broke up with Justin and I haven't stopped crying. I don't know what's wrong with me. I've never cried this much about anyone. Expect my father which is a whole different story.

I wiped my face and tried to calm myself.

Just think about how much better things will be.

I walked downstairs and said hi to my brothers. I guess they didn't notice that I was crying for four hours straight.

I got some ice cream from my fridge and was just about to walk back upstairs when my doorbell rang numerous times.

"I'm Coming!" I yelled. What do these people want? Money? I opened the front door.

Jason?

What the hell does he want?

Being a twin right now isn't a good thing. I suddenly felt the urge to break down on the floor crying. Jason looks too much like Justin. Too much.

"What do you want," my voice cracked.

Vocal Cords C'mon now is not the time.

"Listen, I don't know what happened or what you did but.....my brother locked himself in his room and doesn't want to come out. And we need to get ready for the fight," Jason rambled.

"He locked himself in his room?" I clarified. He nodded. "He won't stop crying.." Jason muttered.

I could see the pain behind Jason's eyes. So he does have a heart. "Whatever you did, it hurt him.....a lot," Jason said, staring at me.

You know that lump you feel in your throat when you need to sob, it's about to come out.

Just hearing about Justin being hurt or upset because of me makes me wanna stab myself in the throat.

Jason stood closer to me and placed his hands on my shoulder. "I don't like seeing my brother upset. So please, just go talk to him," Jason pleaded.

I shook my head. It'll be too hard. "Jason you don't understand. I had to do this. All this stuff that's been going on is because of me," I explained.

"No it's no-" "Hear me out Jason," I cut him off. He placed his hands into his pockets. "Think about it. Jesse was out of your lives until I came in. Idiot me thought he was badass and decided to date him. I was wrong. My mistakes led to this extravaganza. Now everything is just so so wrong and I can't handle all this. I just can't Jason."

Tears were pouring down my cheeks and my lip was quivering. I can't fight this urge. I closed the front door and fell into Jason's chest. He immediately wrapped his arms around me and strokes my hair as I cried into his chest.

"I-I-I'm so sorry," I choked. "Shh it's okay." "No it's not! Justin is crying because of me. He doesn't deserve that. He doesn't deserve me! I'm just a mess. I caused all this shit and I thought the only way to fix it was to end it with Justin which clearly made things worse!" I cried.

I started sobbing heavier and heavier as Jason continued to soothe me. "Hey hey listen. Not everything's your fault. If it wasn't for me, Jesse wouldn't even be spoke of," Jason pointed out.

That's so true...How could I be so inconsiderate? "I mean, if it wasn't for me and my dumb ass attitude, we wouldn't even be having this fight!" Jason said, I think more to himself. "I'm the mess here Les. Not you. You're perfect."

My sobs got lighter and I wiped my cheeks. Thank God no boogers. I looked up a Jason who seemed to be deep in thought.

"FUCKING GOD!"

Jason let go of me and I stood as he started pacing around. I checked my watch, 10:32.

The fight is at 12....

Jason was rambling on how he's a big mistake. "Jason your not a mistake." I said. "Yes I Am! My own parents don't even LOVE me. I wasn't even PLANNED. JUSTIN WAS!"

That I didn't know. I wasn't crying anymore. I was more focused on Jason. The neighbors aren't outside...luckily. "Justin has always been the child my parents worshipped. Because head smarter than me and more behaved and shit. I basically had to raise MYSELF. Justin gets everything. He gets the car. He gets the bigger room. He even gets you..." Jason said muttering the last part.

"What do you mean he gets me?" I asked. Jason stopped pacing and looked me straight in the eye. "Les, your the most beautiful girl I've ever laid eyes on. Inside and Out. You're perfect. And Justin gets to have you. Instead you 'not deserving him' it's the other way around. No boy deserves you actually. Especially not me. I'm a bipolar freak."

Now my eyes were watering. And not because I was sad, because I was happy. I ran to Jason and jumped on him, engulfing him in a tight squeeze. "What are you doing?"

I kissed Jason's cheek and stood back on the floor. "Thank you," I squeaked. "And your not a bipolar freak. Believe it or not, your really hot when your angry," I admitted.

I mean, how can a boy not be hot when his jaw is locked and his veins in his strong arms are showing?

He smirked.

And as fast as it came, Jason's emotional side is gone.

"I know that," he smirked. I giggled at him and gave him another hug. "Thank you so much" I said once again.

"No problem."

"Now can you please drive me to your house? I gotta settle something."

Jason's smile faded, but it was still there. I guess I always knew Jason had a slight crush on me. I just thought he thought I was hot. Not that I was....ya know, beautiful.

"C'mon let's go!" Jason said as he jogged to his car. I took out my phone texting Matthew that I wasn't going to be home that night.

He replied with an okay and promised to tell mom. I smiled.

Maybe things will go a little better this time.

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just a little chapter before I start homework. Ilysm guys. the votes and the comments make my day 💕🌴