POV: Aileene :
I stayed quiet, After crying in Matt's arms, i stood, bowed and walk away to my room. I kept Wondering, am i worth living? Why do they love me so much? I don't understand.....
I walk round and round around the bedroom, mixed emotion, Sad, Happy, and another one that i couldn't yet figure out.
I stop walking and sat down, i began to meditates to calm me from my nervous moment.
After, what seemed like ages, i stopped, i was finnaly calmed. I stood up and walk to the makeup drawer, i looked at all the Brand and types, were they really for me? But i don't like makeup, does that mean, i have to Wear it more often. I shake my head a little, i don't have to if i don't want to Wear them.
I sigh a little, feeling Lost and alone once again. I walk to the door and open it a little. Checking if the hallway is empty, i walk down to the right and then left, until a blue door appear. I knock quietly on the wooden door. The door open slightly, and before the person could speak, i jump in their arms ans hug them
"what's wrong Ailey" Matt's says
"I...i just needed a hug... I..i'm sorry.." i Say
"It okay" he replies, hugging me back.
"Matt, do.. do you love me? Or do you see this marriage as just business matter?" I ask
"Why do you ask this question? Of course i see it as business matter, you said it yourself: you don't want it to be love related."He says. Deep down, he really wanted to tell me how much he loved me. But couldn't. And i couldnt' go back on my words. I just felt.. a little attache to him now. Like, if he wasn't there, something would be missing in my Heart. I wrap my arm tighter around his waist while i Bury my face in his chest, feeling his warmth and the quiet heartbeat of his calmed me down. He also wrapped me in his embrace and layed his head on mine. We stayed like this for awhile, i didn't want to let go nor did he. But, After awhile, we finally released each others hugs. But all this crying and tiredness, made me a little dizzy. I could feel my head spining as i fell backward, my eyes slowly closing. But i didn't reach the floor.
Couple of hours later, my eyes open. I look around the room, i was back in mine, on my bed. What has happenned, i was really confused. I walk out my bed, and look at the Time, it was morning again. I got ready and put on the school uniform. I walk down to the dinner room.
"Good morning" i say, bowing my head politely.
"Good morning!" Everybody says.
Yun: "You're feeling better?" She ask
"I'm okay, just a little confused" i replied.
Matt: " you fainted Yesterday, the doctor said it was because you barely ate food Yesterday, and you were emotionally worned out"
"Was i? I...i'm sorry" i reply quietly
"Don't worry, have a sit Ailey" Yong says calmly, Pointing to the wooden White chair next to Matthew.
It was a little awkward, because i remember what i said last night, but i didn't Know why i said it. I mean, i kinda feel attached to him.. am i.. falling in love with him? But... Does he feel the same? My hands was a little shaky, and cold. My head hurts from thinking to much. I drank a little of the Glass of water, and relax. I start to eat my fruit yoghourt. Once done, i take my bag and walk to the door, looking a little pale. I step out and walk to the car, i get inside and waited for Matthew.
Matt: "You're okay? You're pale"
"Yeh, i'm fine" i replied
"You sure?" He ask back
"Yeh! I'm fine...." I turned my head to the window and look as the houses and trees passes next to the car. I was kinda Lost as a person. Matt was a little worried about me too.
The car arrived at school, and we walk out. Staying next to Matt we walk to class as soon as the Bell rang
