If You Would [h.s.] HOLD

Twenty-Six

Okay first, we have 200 reads!!! Wth, thank you sm for reading!

Second, I double uploaded yesterday and barely anyone read it? Are people becoming uninterested or did people just not see that I updated? Lmk!

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After a few hours of chatting and looking at ultra sound pictures, my mom gets released from the hospital. I help get her things into her bag that she brought just in case.

"Thank you so much for coming baby." My mom brings me into an embrace, something I've missed. I haven't been to my apartment in a few days but I assume they're still crashing there. Their main doctor is here, it's the same doctor that delivered my brother. I wonder what he's doing right now. Probably working. He basically lives at that restaurant.

"Of course mom. It was more of a deal to Harry I'm sure. He has a concert tonight." I look at him and he shakes his head, his floppy hair swishes.

"We cancelled it." His words shock me and both me and my mom are taken aback. Like normal, my dad is unphased.

"Harry, honey you didn't have to do that." My mom speaks up and I nod in agreement.

"Yeah you really didn't." My voice comes out more stern than I meant. He just shrugs defensively.

"The tour is almost over and you might have needed me. The guys agreed too." His gesture was nice but I don't like the feeling rolling around in my stomach. He shouldn't have done that. He can't start putting me above his career. That's not what I want. I shake my head but smile slightly.

"Okay mom. We better get going. I love you." The words leave my mouth for the first time in forever. My "I love you's" are very sparse after Randy. There was a time that I only told him that. I could tell she was caught off guard because she started to tear up. Maybe it was me, maybe it was the baby. She didn't draw any attention to it though. She just brought me into another hug. After she let me go I gave my father an awkward side hug. Things still haven't repaired completely between us.

"Okay, you guys be safe!" My mom waves at us as me and Harry leave the hospital room, hand in hand. As soon as we shut the door behind us I squeeze his hand and let go of it.

"You can't do that." I state. He looks at me and shakes his head.

"It could have been really bad. Even though it wasn't, I'm still glad I cancelled it." He looks forward and we keep walking. The air between us is stiff and awkward.

"Harry seriously." I have to stop walking, I need to think straight. I gently grab his shoulder and make him stop with me and we face each other. I look up at his bright green eyes and realize for the first time today, the deadly looking eye bags. Out of habit I reach up to his face and trace my thumb under his eyes.

"Harry. If I need you to cancel things for me, I'll ask you. You can't put me first. Especially without me knowing." I look away from his eyes and drop my hand, but he picks it back up and presses it against his face.

"Why can't I? Hey. Look at me. Why do we have to go so slow? It's not like we don't know how we feel about each other." With his other hand he lifts my chin and forces our eyes to meet. I can't explain it but it's still so fast. I know we already took it slow before, but I can't be responsible for someone else like this. He cancelled a whole show tonight because of me and my family drama.

"Because we're not there yet!" I let my true feelings show. I can see the hurt in his eyes.

"Is this because of last night?" He lets my hand go and just stands there, slumped and hopeless. Waiting for my next move.