If You Would [h.s.] HOLD

Nineteen

I'm working on A LOT of plot stuff. Ya know, I almost have everything planned out that's going to happen in this book. Stay tooned cause it's a wild ride.

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It's been almost an entire week. Harry left yesterday with the boys. They should be on a plane right now to go to Arizona. It's one of their last shows for the tour, and with Zayn.

I know that Harry is beating himself up about Zayn leaving and I know the boys aren't going easy on him either. From how he described it, I understand where he thinks he's at fault but it's not from his doing. It's not his fault he's hotter and more talented. And he shouldn't have to hide that so Zayn feels better about himself.

"Yooooooo Eve, you good?" Hunters voice snaps me back out of my faults. I look up at him and Mak both staring at me intently.

"Oh yeah. Sorry, I totally went off into a different world there." I lean back against my couch.

"Yeah no kidding. Anyway, when is our plane taking off?" Mak joins in. I pull out my phone and check the date and time Harry sent me this morning for our own personal plane there.

"Uhm. Tomorrow at 7:30 in the morning." I groan, just thinking about getting up that early.

"That's kinda early isn't it?" Hunter interjects. I shrug my shoulders.

"I mean I'm sure it'll be nice to get a lay of the land before we go to the concert. Plus we can explore some places there that aren't around here." As much as I'm excited to see Harry, I'm still nervous about actually being so... out in the open with him. I guess we're official now and I have no idea how his fans will take it. I mean even the one fan who thought we were a thing freaked out.

There have been a few more articles that came out in the past couple days. One of them exposed my full name but I expected that to happen. I'm more nervous that they'll dig around in my past and find something I don't want them to.

"Yeah Hunter. Plus she wants to see her boyfriend!" Mak smiles and winks at me. I roll my eyes.

"He's the one who scheduled it. Not me." I pull my legs up and tuck my knees under my chin. I don't like talking about the labels. Okay yeah he's my boyfriend but we don't have to talk about it all the time.

"Oh come on. You're not excited at all to see your super hot superstar boyfriend?" She asks, noticing my discomfort.

"Hey! I'm the only hot superstar in your life okay?" Hunter nudges her gently. She smiles at him and they have a moment where they just look at each other in appreciation of some sorts. It's sweet. Kind of makes me want to vomit though.

"Yeah. Of course I'm excited to see him." That's all the explanation I give. I'm afraid to explain my feelings and then it get taken the wrong way. Harry and I have been in each other's lives for a little over a month and I wouldn't have it any other way. Sometimes I just wish this wasn't the life he lived. I know that sounds harsh but that's just how I feel. I'm not a social butterfly and I'm camera shy. I don't like when people pry into my life and that's all people do to Harry. Of course they'll scope out his new "fling".

My biggest fear is people finding out about me and Randy's past relationship. What I don't need is sympathy or blame. I don't want people to know about me.

I try to snap myself out of my own thoughts by directing my attention to the TV which was just playing some gameshow on cable.

"I'm bored." Maks voice breaks the silence.

"Same. Horror movie?" Hunter suggests.

Watching a horror movie with my best friends sounds like just the thing to get my mind off of tomorrow. I smile and nod.

"Yes!!" I eagerly grab the remote and switch to Netflix. We search for a good half an hour before picking a B movie about a clown.

I thought it would be dumb but it's actually kind of interesting and scary. We all cuddle up on the couch together, Mak in the middle. We share a huge blanket and share warmth while hastily sharing a bowl of popcorn with m&ms scattered around. About half way through the movie my phone dings. Making everyone jump.

"Fuck! Put your phone on silent psycho!" The words leave Maks mouth with a tinge of lingering fear. I just chuckle and shut my sound off before checking the message.

Harry: Hey love! Excited for tomorrow?

I smile at his eagerness. Although I have no idea how he seems to have that much energy, even through text, at midnight.

Me: totally pumped. Any drama with Zayn today?

Harry: not really. I'll tell you about it tomorrow. Can't wait to see your beautiful face 😘

My eyes roll in instant response to his flirty text.

Me: you're the beautiful one in the relationship. Let's not forget that.

Harry: I'm flattered that you think I'm beautiful but we both know you're totally hotter than me.

Me: yeah yeah whatever. I disagree but we can fight and makeup about it tomorrow.

I cringe at myself while sending the message. Not knowing if he'd get the very subtle suggestion. Honestly, ever since the first time we... well... fucked. I've wanted to do it every day. I'm not a sex addict or anything but seriously, kids got major game.

Harry: my tour bus bed might be a little small for making up.

Me: I'm flexible.

Harry: 😉

Me: 😉😉 👉🏻👌🏻

Harry: oh my god go to sleep woman.

Me: We're watching a movie!

Harry: we? Who are you with?

Me: who do you think?

Harry: better not be a man!

Me: wellll.

Harry: I'm calling you.

Me: NO! I'm kidding. It's just Mak and Hunter duhhh and I'm not even sitting next to Hunter.

See they're wayyyy over there.

Harry: 😑 okay.
Harry: I'm going to bed now though. I'll pick you guys up at the airport tomorrow ❤️ sleep well babe.

Me: goodnight ❤️

I smile at myself and put my thumb nail in between my teeth in attempt to get me to stop smiling. I just stare at our cute little texts and remember why I'm putting myself out there. Why I'm making myself so vulnerable to the public. Sure I don't want to, but it's worth it if I get to be with him. This is what I want.

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Well wasn't that cute?

Got a lot of insight on Evelyn's thoughts in this chapter.

Do you like it better when I show her thoughts more or less? Lmk!! ❤️