Being heartbroken is not a good feeling, I would know because I'm experiencing it right now. It's not even that you dated the person, it's just the fact that you admire this person and they don't like you back.
Acceptance of something like that, is very hard. I don't know if I've ever been in love, or I will ever be. I'm partly scared of love in a sense where I won't understand what it is, but I will believe that I'm feeling it and I get obsessed with this person that doesn't know that I only love them on what I see.
If I love someone, I want to see all sides of them, so I can learn to love all sides of them. Instead of falling head over heels in "love" with this guy that I haven't talked to or maybe that I don't understand or they don't understand me.
Like I said earlier I love having attention, when being in a relationship you get all the attention on you, from this one person. Of corse unless they cheat on you with someone else, I believe that's the easy way of getting out of the relationship, the hardest way to tell someone is by telling them right to their face, then you can see the pain in the eyes of trusting you and yet you still went and fell in love with someone else while they thought that you were still in love.
People say that when your in love you feel a connection or electricity, which is (in my opinion bull crap) when your in love with someone you should feel love, not these other feelings. But yet love can be felt differently in other people and maybe they describe their love as electricity and such.
Then there is the question that still stands, what exactly is love? For me it is a feeling towards someone, that is sort of like admiration, but much deeper in a sense where you perhaps are addicted to them and want to be with them for the rest of your life.
If I put it into this sense then I have never experienced love before. Which for now I think it's good considering I'm young.
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The way of life in my eyes
Kısa HikayeA small journal from me, trying to understand the ways of life.
