Secluded

Chapter 8

I haven't spoken to Michael today. He knows what he's done, I've been crying non-stop. I haven't seen anyone today, I've just been hiding away in my bunk. I've written a new song, it's more my feelings.

"Lexi?" I hear Luke whisper from outside my bunk. "Can I come in?"

"Sure." I say, he climbs in and sits opposite me.

"Are you okay?" He asks. There's something about that question that makes me brake down.

"I'm not okay anymore and I'm done pretending and I don't want to live anymore I want to die I am so sick, of fucking everything." I scream, curling up against the wall.

"Don't say that Lexi..." He says stroking my hair. "You don't want to die, you just want to be saved. It's going to be okay, he was a dick to do that to you. He doesn't deserve you." I slowly look up at him, with tears in my eyes.

"It's so rare that you meet someone that makes you feel so warm and happy like they are like sunshine and you just want them around all the time." I wiped away my tears from under my eyes. "And it sucks because I try so fucking hard, and nothing I do ever seems to be enough for anyone." I sigh.

"I know love. But I think you need to talk to Michael you know. Sort things out between you." He says. I nod.

It's around 3 in the afternoon I think,

I haven't come out of my bunk.

"Alexis?" I hear the all too familiar voice from outside my bunk say.

"Yes?"

"Can we talk?" He asks quietly. I take a deep breath and slowly open the curtain so he comes in. I shut it after him and stare at the wall.

"Lex..." He starts.

"Don't call me that..." I say. "My mum called me that."

"... Sorry..." He mutters. An awkward silence sets.

"Look... I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to do it." He says. I roll my eyes.

"I love you Alexis, I wouldn't hurt you purposely, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me."

"You don't hurt the ones you love." I whisper. "If you loved me you wouldn't have done that. How can I trust you? How can I believe you that you love me? I can't anymore." Im looking at my hands. "I need you. Because you make me laugh, more then anyone else, and I'm the best when I'm with you. And because when you're gone, nothing feels right until you return." I say.

"Alexis. Look at me." I don't move. "Please." I slowly look up at him. "I love you." He says, looking me dead in the eye. I don't reply. "I know you love me, tell me you love me Lexi." I stay quiet. He sighs and goes to climb out the bunk.

"I love you." I say so quietly I can barely hear it, but somehow he hears it and his head whips around to me quickly.

"I'm so sorry, I love you so much." He says, looking at me as if to say 'can I hug you?' I nod. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me into his lap. I let him and droop my arms around his shoulders, digging my head into his neck. I feel him softly planting kisses on my shoulder. "You know I love you right?" He whispers. I slowly nod, holding him tighter.

"Welcome on stage, Alexis Smart!" Shouts the interviewer, I walk on smiling and waving. I sit down.

"Hello." I say.

"Hey Alexis. How's being famous?" He asks.

"Well I wouldn't say I'm famous, but having people that love you is an amazing feeling." I smile, looking at the audience. They cheer.