A Fickle Affair

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

The next day, I walk into the office for work and Gemma is already there. "Hey baby. Feeling better?" she asked. "Yes and no." I tell her. She looks at me confused and I say "About Nate, yes. About everything else? I have no fucking clue." Closing the door and sitting down, she says "Talk." I sigh and start talking. "Okay, last night, I was closing up and Jax came into the office to check on me. I tried to tell him I would be okay and went back to closing up but he kissed me. Not like the other time but like kissed me kissed me." She shakes her head and says "Holy shit." I look at her and say "That's not all. After leaving here, I get home and Opie is waiting for me. We went inside and were sitting on the couch and talking and he kissed me. Pulled me into his lap kissing me." I tell her. "Fuck. Now, you can't tell me that you think they are just being nice." she says. "I don't know what the hell is going on. But Gemma, I can't get involved with them." I say. "Why not?" she asked. "Not only would it mess up my friendship with both of them, but it would mess up their friendship and I can't be the one responsible for that. Plus, you see the croweaters they have all over them. How in the hell could they be attracted to my fat ass when they can have their pick of girls not only skinnier than me but that actually know what to do." I say looking at my hands. "Sweetheart, are you saying?" she asked. "I'm not a virgin Gemma but haven't had that much experience." I say to her. "How do you feel about them? Friendship aside." she asked. "I don't know. I mean, I care about both of them. I never really thought about them as a boyfriend. Gemma, I'm not delusional. I know I would never be enough for them." I say, getting up and leaving the office.

I walk into the clubhouse and start cleaning up and getting lunch ready for the guys. Once it gets lunch time, I set the food out for them and head out to the office to relieve Gemma. "Head on in and eat Gem. I got the office." I tell her. "You need to eat." she says. Smiling I say, "I ate when I was getting the food together." She looks at me and I give her my best smile. I didn't eat but she doesn't need to know that. I work in the office until after lunch and when Gemma comes back in she tells me to go home for the day. I think she knows I am avoiding everyone.

I get home and my phone rings. I hear the recording, knowing it's my dad, and press 1. Once the call connects I say "Hey Daddy. How are you?" I asked. "Good baby. How are you doing?" he asked. "A little better. I'm not really upset over Nate anymore but now I'm confused as hell." I say. "About what?" he asked. "You know I need the money but now I am kind of trying to avoid Jax and Opie." I say. "Why are you avoiding them? Did something happen?" he asked. "Nothing bad. Just. Well, They kissed me and I don't know why but at the same time, I don't want to get anything started with them because it will mess up our friendship all around and I won't come between brothers." I tell him. "Well, let me talk to your mom. I know she could use someone to handle the book work and no one I trust more than you." he says. "Really Daddy? Thank you." I say. Then we hear the one minute warning. "Well, baby, I gotta go. I'll talk to mom. Love you Princess." he says. "Love you too Daddy. Be safe." I say and the call clicks off.

A few hours later, my mom comes by. "I talked to your dad. You need to call Gemma and tell her that you won't be working there anymore. Working with me, you'll make more than enough to live comfortably." she says. "Good. Thanks mom. I wanted to talk to you about it but didn't really think that Daddy would be okay with it but it was his idea." I tell her. "Why are you wanting to quit the garage? I thought you loved it there?" she asked. "I do but I can't be around Opie and Jax anymore. They both kissed me again. Not like before. They kissed me. Like tongue down my throat kiss." I tell her. "Both of them?" she asked. "Yeah. I can't do that mom. They are my best friends and like I told Daddy, I can't come between brothers." I tell her. After she leaves I call Gemma, "Hey Gem. Can I talk to you a minute?" I asked when she answers. "Sure baby. What's up?" she says. "I wanted to let you know I won't be working at the garage anymore. I'm going to work with Mom." I tell her. "Your Dad know about this?" she asked. "It was his idea. I talked to him earlier and told him I couldn't be around Jax and Opie anymore since they kissed me and he said for me to start working with mom. He already told her and I start tomorrow." I tell her. "Well, baby, I understand. I get where you are coming from about the boys but you do what you need to do." she says. "I just don't want you mad at me." I tell her. "Baby, I'm not mad. I get it. As long as you are somewhere that we all know you are safe and you are getting what you need, we are good." she says. "Thanks Gemma. Love you." I say. "Love you too sweetheart." she says and we end the call.