A Fickle Affair

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

It's been a week since my attack and I am finally going back to work. I sit in my office with Leah and say "I need to change things up a little. Uh, We will still plan out the scenes but I need you to be over the filming and editing for a while. Can you handle that?" I asked her. "Sure, anything you need. We got this." she tells me with a small smile on her face. "Are you going to be okay?" she asked. "I don't know. But I can't let my mom's business suffer because of what happened." I tell her. "I get it. I'm here for whatever you need." she tells me and I thank her.

After work, I go home and see Gemma sitting at my door. "How you holding up baby?" she asked. As we walk in, I say "I'm just taking it a day at a time. Leah has been a huge help though. I can't even handle seeing the filming and editing so she's handling all of it for me right now." She takes my hand and says "It's going to take a while but you will get better." she tells me and I hope she's right. "Have you talked to the boys?" she asked. "No." I say. "Why not?" she asked. "I broke up with them." I tell her. She looks at me shocked and I say "Don't Gem. I can't even look them in the eye. How am I going to have a relationship with them when I can't even handle being in the same room?" I asked. "Baby, those boys love you." she says. "I know they do but they need someone that can give them what they need and I can't do that right now." I tell her. We talk a little more before she leave me alone to get ready for bed.

At the clubhouse, Jax is in his dorm room, balls deep in yet another croweater. When he reaches his release, he tells her "Get out." and she grabs her things and leaves him alone. He takes out a cigarette and lights it up. There was a knock on the door and he yells for them to come in. "What the fuck are you thinking?" Tig asked him from the door. "What's it look like. I wanted some pussy, she wanted the dick." he says. "Seriously? What about Cami?" Tig asked. "What about her? She broke shit off, not me." Jax argues. "Because she was fucking raped, man. She thinks you won't want her and from the looks of it, she's right." Tig says before slamming the door shut and walking back to the main room. He walks out the door and to his bike, headed to the one place he knows he's needed.

Pulling up to the house, he gets out and knocks on the door. Seeing that it's Tig, I open the door. "Hey baby doll. How ya feeling?" he asked. "I'm fine." I say. Just like my dad, I hide how I feel about shit. "You can't lie to me. I went to see your dad today." he tells me . "I know. He called to check on me. Told him I would be okay. Tig, I just need time." I tell him. "I know that." he says. I don't dare ask how they are. "You know, you can still come to the clubhouse. Everybody misses you." he tells me. "I'm not ready yet. I can't handle seeing them. I bet all the girls are flocking to them now that they are single." I say and Tig doesn't say anything but that tells me what I needed to know. "Tig, I think I'm gonna head to bed." I say. "Want me to crash here on the couch?" he asked. "Please?" I asked. "Good night Sweetheart." he tells me. "Night Tiggy." I say.

I wake up the next morning and Tig is in the kitchen pouring two cups of coffee. He hands me one and asked "What's the plan for today?" I sigh and say "I have to work. I have a couple of scenes that need to be done today to stay on schedule." I tell him. "Good. Are you sure you can handle it?" he asked. "I have Leah there. If it gets too much, she's been good about taking over." I tell him. "Good. I'll come by and check on you." he says. "Okay." He kisses my cheek and heads out the door. I start getting ready for work and my phone starts to ring. It's Jax. I ignore it. A few minutes later, it rings again and this time it's Opie. Again I ignore the call. I just can't talk to them.

When I pull up to the studio, before going in, I listen to the voicemails. Jax's says Hey, just wanted to make sure you were okay. I'm sorry about how we left things. Let me know you are okay. Alright. Bye. I tear up a little and listen to Opie's Hey babe. Look, I know you said you can't be with us but we still love you and still want to make sure you are okay. Just let one of us know you are okay. I break down and cry and decide to send both a text. I am okay. Just please respect my wishes and leave me be. It was short but sweet. I get myself together and head inside to get this day done.