A Fickle Affair

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

The next few days go by in a blur. We buried my mom, I went to see Daddy and then I decided that I was pissed and I asked Jax to call church and for me to be there. Clay was okay with this. Walking into the chapel with Jax and Opie, I stand by the door and Clay gives me the room. "First of all, I want to thank you all for being there for me these last few days. It's not been easy but it would have been a lot harder if I didn't have you guys. Uncle Clay told me that mom left me Cara Cara and I want to keep it running but after all of this shit with Georgie, I want to keep my girls safe. So, I have a proposition for the club. I haven't even told Jax and Ope about this. You guys have said you were looking for legitimate ways to earn. What if we went in partners together. I already talked to my dad and he thinks it would be a good idea. I provide the talent and get the films made and you guys provide security. I want to make sure the girls are safe from people like Georgie and I don't trust anyone like I do you guys." I say. The guys all look at each other and Clay asked "Are you sure, Sweetheart? Your mom wanted you to have Cara Cara." I smile sadly and said "I'm sure. I have thought about this and it was one of the things that she and I talked about was when she stepped down, she wanted me protected. I want my girls protected and you guys want a legitimate business. It's a win win." I tell him. "Well, baby girl, we have to vote on it." Clay says. "Just let me know." I say before slipping out the door.

Half an hour later, the chapel doors open and Tig waves me in. Walking in, I don't stray from the door. "We voted and we agree that it's a win win. We will have Lowen draw up the contracts to make us a partner and we will sit down together and work out the details." Clay says. "Thanks Uncle Clay. Thanks guys." I tell them. Later that day, we are at Cara Cara because I had called a meeting with the girls. "Thanks for coming everyone. First I wanted to tell you all that I appreciate you sticking with me after what happened to mom. But I want you to know that I am taking all the steps needed to make sure you all are protected." I say. "How are you doing that?" Ima asked rolling her eyes. "I have talked to the club and taking them on as partners for the added security. I want to make sure all of my talent are protected." I tell them all. "Anyone that doesn't agree with it or wants out of their contract because of what happened to mom, I completely understand and you are welcome to come to me and we will work out the details." I tell them but they all start saying that they are staying. All but Ima. "I don't want to get killed because you can't keep us safe." I just look at her and say "Follow me to my office and we can get the separation paperwork done." She follows me and I have her sign her waiver that she can't do anything involving the movies that she has done for Cara Cara. Once it's signed, she's out the door and one less drama for me.

The next couple of weeks have gone by and I have visited Dad every Sunday and we signed the paperwork making the SONS partners and everything is going great so far. My only thing is that the guys being around more, it makes me worry that Jax and Opie will lose interest in me, being around all of these porn stars. I keep that to myself. My girls' safety comes first. I hired someone to come in and do the book work while I take over the director's seat. I used to help mom all the time so I know how to go about directing and editing and such. I know it's going to be more work but that's okay. I have to keep mom's company going. This was her livelihood. I was done for the day and heading out when I see one of the girls all over Jax and he's doing nothing to ward her off. I see her rub her fingers up and down his chest while his arm is around her waist. I head to the car and before I can get my door closed, Jax is pulling it opened. "Hey babe. You not gonna talk to me?" he asked. "You were busy." I say. He kneels down beside me and says "You know I don't want her right?" I just nod my head and tell him "I know. I'm gonna head home." I tell him. "You okay?" he asked. "I'm okay. Just tired." I say. "I'll follow you. I want to spend some time with you." He says standing back up. "Jax..." I start but he cuts me off. "I want to spend time with you. I'll follow you. Love you." he says before kissing me softly and getting on his bike. I just shake my head and pull out of the parking lot.

I pull into my driveway with Jax pulling in next to me. He gets off his bike as I am getting out of the car and he grabs my bag. Walking into the house I tell him. "I'm gonna get a shower." I head to my room and get in the shower and think about him with one of my girls. I can't compete with that. I know I can't. I get dried off and dressed and head out to the living room. Sitting on the couch next to Jax, he tries to pull me to him and I hesitate. He notices this and asked "Are we okay?" I sigh and shake my head yes. I lean into him and he holds me for a few before pulling me onto his lap. "Baby, talk to me." he says. "I just worry is all. I know you love me. But I still worry that I won't be enough and then seeing Janie all over you, it just made me think about things." I tell him. "What things?" He asked. "That I won't be enough. That you'll realize that they can do more for you than I can." I tell him. "Cami, I love you. Only you. I was just being nice to her. That's all. I would never cheat on you." he says. I just nod and curl into his embrace. "I love you too Jackson." I decide that I need to just keep these feelings to myself but I see how skinny they are and I need to lose some of this fat. Time to diet again but I have to be better about hiding it.

I fall asleep in Jax's arms and he carries me to bed. "Stay." I say and he undresses and climbs into the bed with me before pulling me into his arms. I fall back to sleep with him holding me but it's not a peaceful one. I wake up after a dream about him cheating on me and can't get back to sleep. I just lay there, still, hoping not to wake him but I hear him whisper "You okay babe?" I just nod my head and snuggle closer. Trying to enjoy being with him before he realizes that he made a mistake wanting to be with me. "Hey, talk to me." he says as he tilts my head up to look at him. "I just had a bad dream is all. I'm okay." I say and he kisses me softly and says "You know you can talk to me about it." I say "I know but it wasn't important." He kisses me again. "Go back to sleep Jackson. I love you." I say. "I love you Camille." he says before dozing back off, me still awake trying to keep my emotions in check.

We wake up the next morning and I get up and shower for work. I get out and Jax has started the coffee maker. We get a cup of coffee and his phone rings. After getting off the phone he says "I'll call you later." I nod. He kisses me softly and says sternly "I love you." I smile softly and say "I love you too." And with that he is gone, leaving me to my thoughts.