Get to know you [Amourshipping]

Chapter 18 - Real Talk

With that being said, the universe slapped me across the face and everything hit me like a train.

I'm fucking 17 years old, only just got to know this boy and and although my instincts are telling me to trust him, I couldn't only rely on them now, could I? My god, I was SO close to give myself to him, just because 'he seems trustworthy' and my hormones were on a trip.

Those are exactly the reasons why I had told him that I couldn't do this and left the party. I texted May and Dawn that I went home and I was currently changing into my PJ's and felt quite grateful that I was finally able to put my heels off. "Who even invented those toe rapists?" I quietly spoke to myself in my room, kicking them in a corner but regretting it right after, since my feet felt really sore.

I walked over to my bed as fast as I could and layed down, not even bothering to snuggle under the blanket. Today's events were quite exhausting and I was torn about what to do about Ash now.

I'm usually the one to be cool-headed, but honestly speaking, I have no idea how I'm gonna react the next time I should bump into Ash. I know it sounds ridiculous and I hate myself for sounding so corny, but I feel connected to him in a very twisted kind of way. Usually when people speak of some kind of 'bond' all I do is role my eyes. Most of the time, they're just exaggerating things to make them sound more special and serious, but I know what I am feeling. I was aware of the fact that I'm having a crush on Ash, there was no reason for doubting that, but it went so much deeper than that

and that's where I had problems figuring my feelings out.

I was just about to drift off to sleep, when I heard my phone vibrating. I picked it up and saw messages from May and Ash, the one from Ash the most recent one. A little too afraid to open Ash's chat, I settled on May's one first, which was just a plain 'k.' from her side, responding to my 'I left.' text. I left her on read and gathered up the courage to open Ash's message.

Ash: tmr, Yokoto Café, 1pm

I just plainly stared at the message for about two minutes. Ash is quite the commanding one, so I don't think I could refuse. Would I even want to refuse?
I put my phone back on the nightstand and closed my eyes, not having responded to his text. I will show up and

he knows it.

———TIME SKIP 12:55 pm———

I already arrived at Yokoto, because the bus drove off pretty early. I was just sitting at a table on my phone, waiting for Ash to arrive. Suddenly, I heard the chair across from be being pulled and I looked up to see the raven haired boy taking a seat. "Is this seat taken, miss?" he asked playfully, as a slight smile crept up my face. "Not that I know of, sir."

"Mmh, you should call me 'sir' more often." he spoke, sitting down and putting his jacket off. Luckily he was too distracted to see the color on my cheeks. "Hi." he grinned at me once he finally got comfortable on his chair. "Hey."

I mean, I'm glad that we're not being awkward, but I still felt awkward. After the party I totally blew him off and left the party and we're acting like nothing happened. Then again, it's Ash and I bet he makes out with girls every weekend, so it's probably not that big of a deal to him, but is it a big deal to me?

"Serena? What do you wanna have?" I snapped back to reality to find the waitress taking Ash's order and I guess it was my turn now. "Uh, hot chocolate please." I said and the waitress noted everything, before she disappeared behind the counter.

"Okay look, I'm gonna be honest with you."

I looked over to Ash when the waitress left and I felt the tension being twisted 180° degrees. "Serena, I don't exactly know who you are, at least not yet, but being around you I have that constant urge to pin you against a wall and kiss you."

Well that was honest.

"Uh, I-" I was about to say something, actually not even quite knowing what I wanted to say, but I got cut off: "Ssh, I'm not done yet." his gaze went a little darker and I had to admit, he was quite intimidating. "You know, I'm pretty much 95% sure you like me too." he said, leaning over the table a little with a smirk and my eyes widened at his...

well, everything.

"Wha- I- What makes you-"

"think that way? Let me answer that with a question, Serena," he paused for a moment to tuck a strand behind my ear. "If that wouldn't be the case, then why did you kiss back?"

At this point, I just felt plain stupid. I have been acting very obvious. Why did I only just notice? Thinking about it, my feelings have been obvious to everyone. May and Dawn, Ash and even Miette, yet, I didn't even notice till yesterday. And here I thought I could have full control over my life. Guess some things really do stand in the stars after all, that I sadly can't influence. After the fire, I was determined to never let anything happen again I wasn't prepared for, but knowing that I won't ever be able to achieve that drives me crazy and sitting next to Ash who just tucked a strand behind my ear drives me even crazier.

"Look, I'm gonna ask you something now and I don't want you to be afraid to say yes. You got that?" he asked and I nodded. "Serena

I want you to be my girlfriend."

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You know what ironic? I hate reading cliffhangers, yet I love setting them. ALSO, i'm a shitty updater, I'm truly apologize. Y'all, I reread all of the older chapters and honestly I'm embarrassed of some of the formulations, so I'm gonna edit a lot of that stuff. Feel free to reread them too if you wanna, but it's not like I'm gonna change anything of the storyline, so you don't have to. ALSO, 5K READS?! AAHHHHHHHHH

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