After deleting Mark's number, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. And after watching Shallon Lester's three videos, I feel even better. The three videos I watched were: How to Deal With an Ex You Have To See All the Time, Lessons From Selena Gomez's Back To You, and Can a Fuckboy really Change/Should You Take Him Back. Those aren't the exact titles but you get the idea.
The first video really helped. Even though I don't really count Mark as an "ex", he does feel like one. I have to deal with him at least for the rest of the semester. It's going to be hard, but I have to find a way to deal with it the best way that I can, especially after deciding that I wasn't going to be his friend. In the video, Shallon said that in order to move on from someone, they have to essentially become dead to you. This means getting rid of them by deleting them off social media and anything that reminds you of that person. Since Mark has no social media, deleting his number was my only option. I did just that!
The second video helped me a lot too. The basis of this one was how to get over a guy that you'd do anything to get back with him. That was how I was feeling about Mark. I felt like I would do anything to get him back. The thing that Shallon said that really helped me was that we need to tell ourselves that we aren't in love with them. Change the wording so our brains can act on it. So instead of saying "I'm in love with him" say "I'm amused by him". I told myself this over and over again and it really helped. I could feel those deep feelings I had for him slowly melt away.
The third video helped for a possible scenario. In the back of my mind, I kept thinking What if he wants to get back together? Shallon said that if a guy asks to get back together, he needs to prove to you that he's changed. So he can't just say "baby, I miss you". You have to ask, "how are things going to be different this time?". He needs to show through his actions that he's changed. So if Mark does for whatever reason want to get back together, I have to ask him, "what will be different this time? How are you going to prove to me that you've changed and that things will be different?" I doubt that this will happened but I'm ready for it.
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Mark & Me
Non-FictionThis story is told through the eyes of Jasmine, a junior at university. Jasmine started a fling with Mark. Everything was going great for 3 weeks until the "big issue". Things take a turn and get complicated.
