Chim Foreign-Exchange

Part 20

Kim's POV

One week. One week has passed - not a phone call, not a text; nothing. It was hard at first letting her go, I knew she wasn't coming back anymore. I had to move on with my life - I just kept telling myself; 'It was a complicated fling' an affair involving two women who got their hearts thrown into it all. Why is it that us women always let our hearts get in the way? Why can't we be like every man? 'Hit it and quit it' 'Fck her and leave her'? everything is always complicated with us.

Uni is almost finished I have about a month until I get my break for the summer, I've decided to move out of my parents house. Finally. I'm a grown woman and I should have my own privacy - privacy to grieve and morn in private. I was sick of hearing 'Kimberley why are you always so quiet now?' 'This exchange program matured you' truth be told, if I had spoken up about the program I would have cried. I didn't want to explain myself to my family that Kimberley Walsh had not only fallen in love with a woman but in fact she had fallen in love with a married woman. I'd love to see my Mum's face.

"Did you find a place then?" Mum asked, hovering over me as I browsed the Internet

"Not yet Mum, but I have a few bookmarked" I replied, keeping my focus on the laptop

"Maybe moving out will be good for you, you'll go out and see the world; meet new people" Ever since my return and my sudden 'maturity' Mum has been treating me like an adult, speaking to me like my opinion actually mattered

"Yeah.. That would be nice" Cheryl's image suddenly comes to mind - just when I thought I'd forgotten about her; she slowly eases her way into my thoughts - I was cursed by her.

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Kim's POV

Two bedrooms, three baths, living and dining room and of course a master chef kitchen. This was perfect - this was me.

"I'll take it, when is it okay to move in?" I was eager, I wanted to get on with my life - move on.

"The owners are still in the process of finding a house, you're looking at a month" Nothing can ever go right in my life. A month should be perfect, Uni will be done, and I would have bought my furniture and packed all my belongings

"That's perfect, where do I sign" and just like that, it was mine - well in a month to be exact. The anxiety that had been placed over my heart fluttered off to another place; making it easier to breathe. But that broken heart stubbornly doesn't want to leave - her memories playing in my head over and over again

"Come get us Kimba" She giggled running off into the field, her white flowy dress breezing in the wind - it was almost like a dream. I ran after her - because that's what I always did. I was always running for her, for her love, for her happiness.

"Gotcha" I said grabbing her by her waist and spinning her around getting musical giggles filling up my love sick heart

"I want to run away with you! I want to leave this place" She whispered in my ear as I set her down, her eyes boring into my soul - taking my breath away with each second that passed.

"I'll go where ever you go" I said, her smile growing wider at my confession

"Where will you go Kimba? Take us with you"

She lied, it was all nothing but lies to fill in the space of time. I was nothing but time to waste for her - she was on break from work, I was nothing but free time. Something to occupy her day. I was nothing.

My days drag by as I sit there and occupy my time dreaming about her. Dreaming about her smile - and almost always end up crying myself to sleep. My happiness is gone - she took it with her along with my heart. She took it and didn't give it back, and I saw wish and dream to hear her laughter one last time. The laughter only I was able to get her to do, that smile that I was only able to see, because everything other smile was fake.

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Kim's POV

"Kim come meet Lawrence's brother! He's so handsome" Sally said barging into my room; I can't wait to leave

"It's okay, I'm good" I laughed lightly going back to the book I was reading

"Come on! You're always cooped up in your room! We're downstairs having some drinks" She said taking my hand and dragging me out of my room. Forcing me to sit with them; a drink or two won't hurt

"Kimberley this is Justin, Lawrence's brother. Justin this is my sister Kimberley" I knew what she was doing, and I wasn't going to give my heart to anyone - it's already been taken.

"Nice to meet you" I smiled shaking his hand politely and taking my seat on the arm chair - accepting a glass of wine from Sally

"So Kim, I heard you've finished Uni! What an accomplishment" Justin commanded me

"Kimberley, and yeah hard work pays off and all" I shrugged taking a sip out of my wine

"Right sorry, so what are your plans now?" I was bored with his conversations - I was speaking to him but all I could think about was Cheryl. I wonder what she would be doing right now? Why am I even doing this to myself - she's not even thinking about me.

I drank tons that night, too much if you ask me. It was the only way to get her out of my mind - I needed her to leave me alone. I needed to forget her

"Here let me help you" Justin said seeing me swaying about - struggling to get to the stairs

"Thankkk you" I slurred - my eyes heavy; becoming an issue and a job keeping them opened

"It's down the h-hall" I said tripping over my own feet, but he held on even tighter to me

"Well.. Good night" He said standing awkwardly in the room - helping me into bed

"A-Aren't you gonna give me a g-goodnight kiss" I hiccuped, he smiled - he didn't reject, he lowered himself and gave me a rough kiss. It wasn't gentle, it didn't give me butterflies. It wasn't hers. I was crazy thinking she was mine - it was all just a lie.