trouvaille // jenlisa

seven

/JENNIE/

What do you do when you're catching feelings for someone whom you're not even sure will be there to catch you?

While there's someone who's already spreading his arms wide open to welcome you whenever you decide to fall into his embrace?

What do I do?

Lisa, for the hundreds time, consumed my mind and lingered inside it for a very long period of time. She constantly entered, yet scarcely exit. 

Something about her was addicting, but I didn't know exactly what it was. Maybe it's somewhere between her eyes, her smile, her intoxicating scent, or her freaking warmth. I didn't know which one. Or maybe simply all of them.

She's like the earth while I'm the rain. I didn't choose to fall for her, yet here I am, falling all over again and again. 

Jesus, it must be the novel, I had never talked about anyone like this ever before. I've never been this cheesy, ever. 

Or maybe it's just her.

One part for me ached to get to know her, to dig inside her mysterious cover, to know her deeper, to understand her, and maybe find out the source of her warmth. And no, I'm not only talking about bodily warmth here, because every time she entered a room it got warm instantly. It's just something inside her, and I'm more than curious about it. 

But the other part basically slapped me for thinking like that. Why? Simple, thinking so intensely about another person while you're having a boyfriend was just wrong. 

Yes, boyfriend. 

As in Kim Jongin, my boyfriend. 

Kai was such a perfect man every woman would love to be with. He was patient, kind, loving, and all a woman could ever ask for in a man. And I should've been grateful for being his girlfriend of two respectable months. 

Two months, and I was growing more unsure as days passed by. I knew I'm being unfair because all he ever gave me was comfort and love, but I just couldn't help the sound of the heart from voicing out loud.

"How's your day?" Kai asked on the other end of the line. He sounded tired, yet still, spare his time to call me late at night like this. 

"Exhausting, really. I think I failed Mr. Smith's exam, but what's new," I chuckled, not bothering to hide the obvious exhaustion in my tone. 

"Oh, do you want to go to bed now?"  Kai picked up my tone perfectly and strangely succeeded at making me feel guilty. He's tired too, but he could bare holding on for a few moments for talking to me, so why couldn't I?

"No, not yet. Tell me about yours," I answered instead. I smiled when I felt him smiling on the phone. 

"Nothing much, really. But today's rehearsal was insane. My body's all sore, I'm positive," Kai answered, sighing. 

"Honestly, Jen, I miss you so much," he continued after a brief pause. 

My heart couldn't help but flutter at his confession. 

"I miss you too," I answered automatically. 

He had been away for a week, rehearsing for a dancing competition. I wouldn't lie, but I missed his presence. I missed his affection and all the cute things he usually did for me. 

"Do you got plans tomorrow night?" 

I thought for a moment before answering. "No," 

"Let's have a night out,"