I'm Your Secret Admirer

31: Jealous Much?

 Yay so I completed my sociology test this afternoon today (thankgod) so i'm in a very good mood right now:-)

Anyway, heres it is, as promised from the previous, I dedicate this chapter to chocofudgecake, once again thank you so soo much for all of the comments & votes. Just recently i've noticed alot of you guys adding my story to your reading list and favorites, so thank you :-) x x

CHAPTER 31

Alyssa's P.O.V

3 days later...

Okay so it's been two days since Niall's changed his new look and now I think I’ve totally had enough of it all already.

"Well you looked very annoyed today... just like yesterday and the days before that" Kendra commented as soon as she sat down, as I angrily stabbed my salad for a while, just ignoring Kendra's existence for a minute there.

Pretending all of these leafy green skinny leaves on my plate were a big bowl of those disgusting clingy sluts, that I was stabbing and taking out all of my anger on right now from the scene in front of me.

"Oh wait, would it happen to have anything to do with Niall's new look and appearance to everyone around school now?" Kendra continued, getting the fact that she was enjoying every bit of my jealousy for those girls with Niall, as I finally took my eyes off of Niall and the girls around him, to look at my best friend before scowling at her.

"No" I harshly responded back, although my tone showed I cared anyway.

"Yes!" Kendra's voice rang back as she continued to tease me.

"No, I so am not jealous or even one bit annoyed right now" I defended myself.

"Oh you so are jealousy and even more annoyed right now" Kendra instantly replied back, rephrasing my whole sentence as I snarled at her sarcastically.

"Am not" I told her quite childishly.

"Are too" She grinned.

"No"

"Yes"

"No!"

"Yea"

"No, I'm not jealousy, in fact I’m doing okay, incredibly fine if you ask me, I mean if I were jealous then do you think I’d be standing right now for three whole straight days just letting this all happen in front of me?" I finally blurted out at her, expecting my best friend to just shut up about this now, but clearly she was trying to push my buttons today.

"Well technically you're not standing; you're sitting down and having lun-"

"Oh you know what I mean, I’m perfectly fine anyway, and it doesn't bother me. Not one bit. In fact, I don't even care at all if he's constantly got a group of girls around him now" I roared back at her, before watching her suspiciously eye me, as if everything I was saying just came out as a complete lie.

"Mhmm."

"Yeah so I’m fine. Perfectly and happily fine with him" I told her through gritted teeth whilst trying my best to put on a smile.

"Then would you explain why you're killing your salad right now" She simply said whilst eyeing my salad as I finally looked down to see bits and pieces of tomato, lettuces and a bunch of vegetables, all smushed up into tiny bits and pieces, that were caused by the sharp fork in my hand, as I looked back at her, seeing a massive I-told-you-so grin on her face, before pushing the plate of now ruined salad away from me, as I sighed back in my chair, whilst closing my eyes in frustration.

Okay, seriously what has come over me?

I've never reacted this badly before over a guy.

I've never ever acted this jealous before.

So honestly now, why was I acting like this over him?

I mean, it's not like he's my boyfriend for goodness sakes, he's my best friend.

There's no need to act like this.

So why am I?

"Alyssa, it's okay." Kendra finally broke the mental silence as she reached out her hand to pat me as a sign of comfort but I quickly rejected it.

"No it's not okay Kenda, everything's not okay. I shouldn't be acting like this. I really shouldn't" I said whilst shaking my head back and forth, as if wanting my jealous feelings to go away immediately right now.

"But you are" Kendra responded back whilst looking at me with sympathy, as if thinking this would help as I gave her that look before responding back to her pointless comment.

"You're not helping at all" I told her.

"Oh, sorry"

"Whatever, I'm just gonna have to ignore him" I responded back, settling for that idea.

"You know you could just tell h-" Kendra was about to bring up before I had cut her off.

"No. I'm not telling him anything. I can't. He'd kill me if he knew I knew he was my you-know-what all along, and the fact that I was there when he got drunk and started pouring his heart out to me, I mean for all I know, his feelings for me could have changed already" I told her truthfully not wanting to mention the word 'secret admirer' but worrying about what he'd think let alone say about that.

"Well okay then" Kendra gave up before stabbing a bunch of chips on her plate and shoving them all in her mouth in one go, I would have made a disgusted comment about this, but quite frankly I was too distracted to see the horrid moment, for I was looking at something far more terrifying than that.

I was looking at him.

Again.

And not seeing my fragile best friend standing right there anymore.

But a whole different new person.

A different Niall.

Oh god, how am I going to get over this?