I'm Your Secret Admirer

6: One Day She Will

CHAPTER 6

Alyssa’s P.O.V

I can’t believe what Niall had said to me earlier.

I mean, saying yes? Seriously… why on earth would he scare me like that? It wasn’t even funny… well at first it wasn’t because for a second there I actually had to think if this was actually happening to me until that awkward moment passed by and I just knew for sure that it had to be a joke. Niall always jokes around with me anyway, so it must’ve been a joke.

I mean, there’s no way in hell could he have written that letter and gave me those roses… could he? No.

Why? Because that’s not what Niall Horan does, that’s not what he’s like. I’ve known him all my life and I can sure as heck tell you that he’s no way near the type to go sending me sweet stuff like that all of a sudden.

I mean, c’mon, Niall? He’s my best friend. He couldn’t possibly be that ‘one’. Or should I say, I couldn’t possibly think of Niall as that ‘one’.

But why did I have to think there for a moment about it when he said yes?

Was I really that unsure? I mean, surely I should’ve been able to indentify and catch onto that little joke of his immediately, shouldn’t I?

But it seemed like he had managed to kept such a straight and calm face on him the whole time afterwards. It was like he was being serious for a second there…

No, this is crazy.

I know Niall like I know the back of my hand. I understand him perfectly well and I can obviously read him perfectly clear. So why couldn’t I for that exact moment when he was joking? Why couldn’t I see that he was clearly joking around? Gosh, I practically grew up with this kid ever since we were young yet I still feel like I don’t get him now-a-days.

But then why did it feel so real? Like he was actually telling me the truth or something? Why was I speechless at first? Did I really have some second thoughts there?

Everything just didn’t seem to add up earlier, so the only thing I thought I could do to avoid myself from thinking like this again was to laugh it off. Then seconds afterwards, I find myself watching Niall confirmed the fact that he was only kidding about his answer and that he was trying to see if I would fall for it.

Well god damn for a minute there I did Niall… trust me, I did. And I can remember perfectly well how I swear my heart almost stopped beating at that very moment.

But you know what? The strangest thing I can’t seem to get my finger around, was feeling like he was lying about that or something… I mean, I don’t know.

Do you ever get that feeling where you can already sense that big lie someone says to you in order to cover up something… well that’s how it felt. And I wasn’t sure why but I feel like I shouldn’t just judge him too quickly now.

 It’s like as if I’m getting some clues popping out of nowhere all of a sudden and for some odd reason, something’s telling me to hold onto Niall.

5 minutes later...

After walking to school in that awkward silence between us, I then saw David waiting by the gates for someone as I immediately shot up to him, surprising him with a massive hug.