What Happened In My Life

Thought after thought

Our daily routine goes on from bathing ,to class then dinning into breakfast.

Molly came to my class to apologize for not showing up after I asked her to come see me for her punishment on Sunday. I had even forgotten about it, I did nothing to her but asked her to get me water to which she did immediately. She's a smart and obedient girl so I like her even though she mostly annoys me.
'of course, for you everyone annoys you', I laugh at the thought.

Barbie came to see me today in my class, it's actually been a while since I saw her.
"Where have you been", I asked her.
"I went home for the rest of my fees", she gave me a weak smile.
"Hmm!  But hope everyone at home is doing great? ", I try to make her feel comfortable.
"They are great. My mom told me to bring you this ", she had in her hands a full loaf of sugar bread.

I thanked her and left with her since class was over. We had a nice chat whiles walking to our house. She actually has a nice sense of humor so I really enjoy her company. She waved and entered her dorm as I did same.

My sleep was cut short as a voice called out to me.
"Please Madam Agnes wants to see you ", the person spoke. I felt so weak to even get up from bed but I still did. I knocked on her door and I was told to come in. She asked how I was doing and how studies was going on for me.
      'Since when did she become this nice to me', I asked myself then gave her one beautiful fake smile.
"Mika, I would like you to be our next house prefect. What do you think?", she looked so happy thinking I would say yes.
"Madam it's a nice idea but I'm standing for a library prefect ", I lied.
"Ow! That's not bad too, OK if you say so. That will be all, thank you ", she was confused. It looked funny to me, I thanked her and left.

Wow, I just told a beautiful lie which means I must do it before she gets to know it was a big lie. I don't want a position among the perfects.
'Okay, let's do this. People don't really know you in this school so just go for it because we both know it won't work out'
That's not a bad idea at all. I know I will loose so it still won't be a lie after all.

I went for one of the application forms to fill. I did everything needed except the space recommendation of our house mistress to give her remarks and then sign. I greeted her and handed it over to her. She smiled and told me she didn't think I was the prefect type. Finally! Someone who actually understood me. She then told me that will be all, I could leave. I left feeling weird.
  I slept through out prep and continued when I went to my dorm.

' I'm standing on stage and ordering some students to clean the dinning hall. One refused and I had to slap the back of her hand with mine about five times as she was kneeling down. I felt so angry but bad at the sight of seeing the girl I hit cry. What have I turned into, I feel people staring at me with disgust. No no, this isn't me. I can't hurt a fly but just a moment ago I made a girl cry. This isn't real, no! No!! '

"Mika! Mika! Wake up, it's a dream", Salomey shook me hard. My eyes were filled with tears which made my vision blurry. She sat by me and wrapped her hands around me, all I could do was cry more. She led me to wash down after crying which was about three o'clock. She didn't ask anything but slept by me to make me feel calm.

This is one thing I love about some friends I have. They won't try to make you talk when they feel you don't wanna so they rather make you feel comfortable and loved.

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