Saint Midoriya (Discontinued)

Rainbows and Happiness

Izuku POV

I kicked a rock that was on the floor as hard as I could. What was my life? Last night I had a moment of realization that has only just hit me on the head with its full weight.

Okay, lemme explain, last night I asked myself why I was always so nervous around girls. At first I just blamed it on hormones and the fact I'm a teenage guy but then I thought a bit harder about it. I realized that the answer I have been going with for a while now (the one I just mentioned) was kinda sexist. Why should I be so nervous around females? I've always thought that they should have more rights and stuff and always thought it was disgusting when people singled them out simply for them being the gender the were, so why was I doing it?

Unlike Minetta and sometimes Kaminari, I didn't get crushes on girls because of what they looked like. In fact, I'm not sure how often I've looked at a female and thought they were hot. When Minetta asked me what I thought of a girl that he was drooling over, all I could say was, "I guess she's kinda cute".

But males on the other hand... I'd always admired Kacchan and got upset really easily if he said something nasty but if somebody else had said it, I would've been fine or would have shrugged it off. Also, I remember when I was younger, watching things like Sofia the first and My Little Pony and keeping it a secret from my friends, sometimes - when not wearing All Might ones -I would wear my favorate pink and purple flowery pajamas.

I know it's a stererotype for gay people to be into things that girls like but I'm only pointing out things that I would have been further made fun of for.

Does this make me gay?

Have I had a crush on a guy before? Hmm... well since I already knew that I didn't actually look at girls that way then my next question would be, what the hell does a crush feel like?

I guess I could ask somebody but who would I ask? All of my friends would think I'm really weird for asking that and they're all worshipping me and all that stupid nonsense. That's another thing I don't get. ARGH WHY IS LIFE DOING THIS TO ME???!!!!

"Midoriya," a familiar voice came from my side. "You've been glaring at that patch of dirt for ages as though it's offended you. Are you alright?"

I looked up. Todoroki.

Should I tell him about my questioning my whole life or just let it cripple up inside me and let it multiply and spread throughout me until all I am is a broken mess.

Hmm... what to choose....

The second option seemed more logical. I mean, actually talking to people about your problems? Ewwww! I'd rather let my soul, heart and mind shatter and give in to the darkness!

"Err, I'll be fine." I said, not sounding convinced myself.

He raised an eyebrow.

"Actually," I sighed "I'm just contemplating my life and wondering what the hell my sexuality is and stuff. But there's no need to worry, everything will sort itself out in the end. I guess."

"Ah," Todoroki nodded, seeming to understand the stress I was in. "I had that when I was 13. Actually, not long after I realised I was gay I started wishing I was female for ages. It took me about 6 months for me to give up on that and just accept myself as I am. I sometimes still wish it but I mostly just want to stay how I am now."

"Oh. I had no idea, Todoroki." I said quietly.

"Uhh, yeah. That's because I didn't tell anyone, dumbass." he rolled his eyes and I chuckled a little bit. "You want to know what a crush is, right? Well suck it up because I won't tell you. You've got to work it out by yourself like I did."

I groaned.

"But I'll give you a hint," Todoroki leaned in to whisper in my ear (may I just add that his breat is really cold) "You have a crush on Bakugo."

author's notes: I'm sorry to anybody who's reading this pile of crap that I haven't updated in a while. I started watching Blue Exorcist and got into that fandom for ages until I remembered about this! PLEASE I NEED SOME HELP AT COMING UP WITH IDEAS!!! My tiny (non existant) brain can't think of things that can satisfy everybody! I've had a confusing chapter, a moderately funny chapter, a chapter filled with a bunch of sentences consisting of about 3 words and then this slightly more normal chapter. EMBRASE THE GAYNESS! WELCOME THE RAINBOWS! ALL HAIL SAINT MIDORIYA! What more could you people want? What was that? A normal story? I'm afraid that's not in my dictionary. Could you explain it to me?

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