Letters to you

From beau

On a silent night when friends are few I close my eyes and think about you: a silent tear, a silent care, a silent wish you were here.

Dear Zoey

Me and the lads had a movie night last night. It was the first one since you died. It wasn't the same, I missed hearing you mutter all the words under your breath, I miss you laughing so hard it made me laugh, I miss you. It's been 1 week.

You shouldn't of done it. The fans never meant it. Ugh what am I doing standing up for them when they are the reason you are gone! I hate knowing the fact that I'll never be able to see you again. You were too young. Instead of watching the movie I sat and thought about all the good times we had.

My favourite memory with you is the time I took you to the park and we sat on the swings and I promised you I would protect you,I'm sorry Zoe,I'm sorry I couldn't protect you from the fans. Every night when we are on stage I look down and see your face, I see you smiling up at me.

Also remember that time you jumped in the pool and I thought you were drowning and jumped I after you? I broke my arm that day because I hit it off the bottom of the pool,you couldn't stop laughing until you saw that I was hurt.

I thought that breaking my arm was the worst ever pain but think about the pain you went through.

Can I ask you something?

Are you happy zoe? Are you finally happy? Because I'm not, none of your friends are and your family is heartbroken,your mum hasn't left the house and your dad gets drunk every night, your little sister Ellie asks for you everyday but she's too young to understand so we say your on holiday.

The other day she asked if she could go visit you,no one knew what to say.

Please come back Zoe,I miss and love you.

Love

Beau

Xx