We Can't Be Just Best Friends (Completed)

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" hi Luna , long time " mrs. Simpson spoke as I came down. 

The familiarity and the sweetness in her voice was enough for me to have the flashbacks of the old days when I used to stay the nights. 

As much as I loved it , I hated it. 

" Yeah I know , I'm just leaving anyway " I spoke as I looked at brad whose face now held confusion. 

"Just have the breakfast " she said

" Oh no really , grandpa is at home alone , I better leave " I spoke and she nodded I guess because she discovered the tension. 

" Brad can you drop me ?" I asked and he simply Nodded taking the keys off from the key stand and opening the front door and walked out. 

" Are you alright ?" He asked as we slid in his car. 

" Yeah I just wanna go home " I replied not wanting to sound cold but I was , from everything.  I hadn't wanted it to happen this way , I had wanted to be with Simpsons but I couldn't .

With a speechless drive we pulled in my driveway and with the word of good-bye's we left each others company. 

I entered the house to find it as cleaned as possible and my grandpa making breakfast. 

" Glad to know you're back " he smiled

" Me too " I mumbled and walked upstairs. 

The rest of the day was quite peaceful , i learnt that Max was out of town till the evening so he couldn't join us and how they spent the last night watching movies and had fun without me.

Even though we were watching movies all day I felt as if I wasn't there , I was absent in a world of my own.  It has never been easy to be around brad and pretend as if nothing ever happened and as much as I hated my last night activities I wanted it while I was sober but I had wished nothing ever happened at all but I am also not sure to trust brad and believe whatever he says . I had done it and believed everything he said but had been betrayed . The promises to love each other forever and stay together were crushed like a wrecking ball after everything didn't work out. 

I couldn't help but wonder if all those 4 years were never anything to him that he let it all go.  If it all ever mattered to him or not.  Maybe it did but maybe it didn't.  After spending almost all of our 16 years together as friends and then as a couple , it was ended as if there never existed any 16 years.  Who would believe that after being together for these long years , things would end in the worst way possible.

I had hated it , hated every single minute of not being together not just now but earlier too. 

Every relationship have fight but it never means to just let it end once and for all . I remembered how I was Completely drained at the end of the last semester because of our breakup.  My mental health disturbed my physical health but he never cared.

Every single minute of us not being together I couldn't really believe I had worried about him in every way I could . If it wasn't for Melissa and Lidia I would've just ended up crawling back to brad.

Imaging myself back with brad always sounds good but neither is it possible nor is it actually good.  We both know we were never meant to be and i had learnt it and as much as I hate it I have to abide by it and keep learning it's meaning every single day till I am on my feet and see him as nothing but a stranger but it all remains like a fantasy as usual because every single time my eyes lay on him , I know I loose it not just his looks but everything that he does and I am still trying to move past it.

By the time I leave the house promising to be back soon which is for sure it's 7 . I drive silently enjoying the rain and the songs playing in the background making it the perfect melody to my heart. 

My playlist has never really been with me because as soon as the rain Increases his recording comes on . I had managed to ignore this song always but right now I can't put my fingers to change the song .

It sounds as beautiful as the day when he recorded it in front of me . It sounds so stupid that I still live to hear his voice after everything that had happened.

I reached my apartment by 10 because of the traffic being shit , welcomed by Melissa and Peter.  It seems as if he stays with us .

" Hi girl , how was it ?" Melissa asked cheerfully. 

" It was okay or I'd consider nothing" I replied truthfully.

" Why what happened ?" She asked concern lacing her voice. 

" Nothing much , I need rest" I replied and walked in my room.

It was 3 in the morning and I have managed to cry all this while . I have no reason to cry but after spending the weekend with him I knew I would definitely loose it. Realising that everything went in vain hurt me to no end and that made me cry my heart our , remembering every memory to every fight that lead to this, me crying in the middle of the night because he isn't beside me .

There is a slight knock on my door and I wipped my tears , the door much sooner and Melissa walked in .

Without saying a word she sat next to me , i sat too and before I knew she was hugging me and I have managed to cry again .

" He wasn't worth it Luna " she spoke and it seems as if it is the millionth time but I still don't understand it. 

Until now I have to  " he was "

He was never worth it.

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Sorry for a late update. 

All the love - R.r.