A Secret Worth Keeping: Alessia Cara Fanfiction

I'm Sorry

Shawn P.O.V

When I woke up the next day, me and my crew along with Alessia and her crew were heading to Denver. During the ride there, I looked at Alessia. She was lying down on the seats and was on her phone. I couldn't stop staring at her at all. I didn't know why I made that kind of mistake. I miss Alessia so much and I wish that things weren't so terrible between us during the tour. With me and Camila back together, our relationship is getting close to be over. I need to figure out a way of how to leave Camila because I really do love Alessia. I just can't let her go. Even when she's upset, she still looks beautiful and I could tell right now that she was hurting. I have to talk to her but I gotta see what I could do about Camila first.  

When we got to Denver, we arrived in our hotels. I walked up to Alessia so that she could stop what she was doing. 

Alessia: "What?"

Shawn: "I know you're still upset with me.."

Alessia: "Of course I'm still upset with u.."

Shawn: "I know u are but I'm really sorry, Alessia. Please don't get upset with me anymore..I know u still care about me and I know u don't want nothing to happen to us. Just say u forgive me instead of hiding it cause I hate to see u upset."

Alessia: "Shawn, if you hate to see me upset then why would u go ahead and date Camila again?"

Shawn: "That was the mistake I made..I don't know why I would let myself fall in that kind of trap..I feel terrible..I really do."

Alessia: "Shawn, do u love Camila?"

Shawn: "No..."

Alessia: "Then why would u agree to get back together with her?"

Shawn: ...

When I stood silent, tears began to fall from Alessia's eyes.

Shawn: "No come on Alessia...don't cry...please.."

Alessia: "I think we need a break from each other..."

Shawn: "What...you're can't be serious.."

Then, Adrian met us in the hall.

Adrian: "Come on guys, fans are waiting for you two."

I looked at Alessia as she was wiping her tears off quickly. 

Shawn: "Alessia..."

Alessia: "....We have to go..."

Me and Alessia headed inside to get ready. Alessia had to wash her face and she had to redo her makeup cause she cried. She put on a little mascara on and gloss on her lips. Seeing Alessia cry made me upset too. How could I be so stupid? I left someone that I really loved for someone that I didn't love at all. And now we're taking a break from each other. I have to do something fast because I'm not letting me and Alessia stay separated. I love Alessia more than anything. I finished getting ready and me and Alessia headed out. Lots of our fans were screaming when they saw us. We both smiled and waved at them. We took pictures and spoke with them. The meet and greet was amazing and tonight will be amazing too. It still hurt me inside that me and Alessia were no longer talking to each other. Tomorrow me and Camila are over. I can't take this anymore. 

Later during the night, we got ready to perform. I performed first and then Alessia performed. Alessia came out smiling after her performance but wasn't smiling when she saw me. I just wish that I could tell her that she means the world to me and I won't let nothing happen but I can't now. 

When we got back to hotels, we packed our stuff and headed back onto the tour bus. Tomorrow we were going to Oslo and hopefully by tomorrow, things would be ok with me and Alessia. I said goodnight to Alessia but she didn't say it back and that really hurts. We both headed to bed. 

A/N: End of chapter!!