A Secret Worth Keeping: Alessia Cara Fanfiction

Time for Tour

Alessia P.O.V

2 days have passed and today was the tour. I was going to see Shawn today. I wasn't really in the mood to see Shawn. I was still upset about what happened. I didn't want to talk to him at all but today I had to see him and there's nothing I could do about it. I packed my stuff and met up with my team. Olivia, Adrian, Eric and Shawn were there waiting for me.

Olivia: "Hey Ale!"

Alessia: "Hey Liv.."

Olivia: "Are u ok?"

Alessia: (sighs) "Don't worry about it..."

Olivia: "You can't be upset on your first day of tour.

Alessia: "We'll talk about it later during the bus ride..."

Olivia: "Okay.."

Before I got on the tour bus, Shawn said hi to me. I saw him saying hi to me but I didn't say hi back. That was what made Shawn's heart hurt him again. I could tell that he was upset about his mistake but I just needed sometime away from him. When I got on the bus, I sat down and Liv sat beside me. Shawn sat right on the seat that was in front of us with Adrian and Eric. Oh btw my mom was there with me too. She was sitting in the back. I didn't know why she chose to sit there but it didn't really matter.

Olivia: (whispers) "So what happened with u and Shawn??"

Instead of whispering back, I texted her a message of what happened so that Shawn won't hear what we were discussing about.

Olivia: (whispers) "OMG he's dating Camila now?!"

I nodded.

Olivia sighed and gave me a hug. A hug was exactly what I needed right now and that was what made me feel good. It was a 4 to 5 hour drive to where we were going. The first place we went to was Amsterdam. We parked and then came out of the bus. I stretched so good because the ride was so long.

Shawn: "Alessia.."

I rolled my eyes.

Alessia: "What do u want?"

Shawn: "Listen, I understand that you're upset about me and Camila being together but I'm sorry, okay? U can't keep avoiding me forever. U can't keep ignoring my messages either."

Alessia: "I could do whatever I want..."

Shawn: "No u can't.."

Alessia: "Yes I can, u can't control me on what I do."

Shawn: "Really? Why not?"

Alessia: "Because you're not the boss..."

Shawn: "Why are u acting like this?"

Alessia: "Because of you! You caused this between us, don't blame me for being like this. And I don't know why you're talking to me because I'm still upset with you.."

Shawn: "Alessia, I'm sorry.."

Alessia: "Sorry doesn't solve anything.."

Shawn: "Come on Alessia..."

I left to go meet with Olivia but before I could keep up with her, Shawn held onto my hand.

Alessia: "Oh my god, let go."

Shawn: "I still love you."

From that moment, that made me feel calm inside. He just said that he still loved me. I placed my hand on my heart. I still loved him too but I don't know if I should forgive him or not.

Alessia: "W-whatever...bye..."

Shawn: ....

When my team and Shawn's team arrived in the hotel, me and Olivia talked and laughed together with the crew. It was pretty fun talking with them and that kind of made me feel a little better. But those 4 words "I still love you" that Shawn said was still in my mind. I tried to clear it off because we were going on stage tonight. When it was 7:30pm, Shawn went on the stage and performed. He performed 4 or 5 of his songs which lasted until about 8pm. After he left the stage, me and Shawn didn't say any words to each other. Me and him were still not talking. When I got on stage, I performed and left the stage at 9pm. The performance was so much fun.

When I left the stage, Shawn looked at me. I was trying not to look back at him.

Shawn: "Um u were good tonight..."

I didn't want to be rude so I replied back.

Alessia: "Oh thanks I guess...."

I headed back to the room with Shawn to meet the crew. Tonight was fun though I gotta admit on that. I went on my instagram and posted a photo saying this: Thank u, Amsterdam🖤 and then I got off my phone. My photo got up to 11,007 likes so far but there wasn't any comments because my comments were disabled. I turned off my phone and I headed to bed. Tomorrow me and Shawn were heading to Denver.

Shawn's words were still stuck on my head while I was sleeping last night but I tried not to cry in my sleep but I ended up doing it. I cried softly so that no one would hear me until I was actually asleep.

A/N: End of chapter!!