WE BELONG TOGETHER

Chapter Forty Five.

I am still shocked from the dream. I'm freaked out by the fact that I can be having nightmares about George.

He sure is my nightmare.

The worst one.

I admire people who have good mums I also admire mums who love their children and their love for them is the most important thing to them.

Mine is more of a lunatic and a sycophant than a mum. I am still not sure if she sired me or if she got me by the roadside.

Maybe my real mother is dead or maybe she didn’t want me and she put me by the roadside for a good Samaritan to get a hold of me.

But then is my mum the good Samaritan? I don’t know.

I smile despite myself. One day I am going to be a mum.

What kind of a mum do I want to be? Will I have a favourite child and that whom I detest so much?

I know babies don't send any applications  to be born, I sure as heaven didn't send an application to be born of this woman. The way she detests me you would think that I am a mistake. That I was actually supposed to be aborted but my dad said no.

I pick the call reluctantly. And press it to my right ear. I am not sure if I want to talk to her but she is the woman I know as my mother so I have no option whatsoever.

“Hello Lynette.” from her voice she must be tired.

She never and I mean never call me Lynette unless she has the most important thing to say to me.

“Hi.” I greet back in the most bored voice I can muster.

“Can we talk?” I don't want her to pull me towards her. Maybe she is just laying a trap for me so I don't want to say yes.

“About what?” I am wondering why he should call me now for a talk when all she has ever done is to initiate suffering in my life.

“About us my dear.” I swallow dryly and laugh.

“You think there is an us?”

“Listen I know what that question means. I also know how you view me but we need to talk.”

“I am in Nairobi. Does that mean I come back home?” I can hear a very heavy breathing from her end and even though I have never trusted my mum, I think she is being genuine.

My instincts don’t always lie to me.

Bob has this questioning look. He must be ready to know who is calling because I sometimes hide these shit.

I don’t go giving information anyhow.

“Come Lynette or you will regret your actions.” she threatens and terminates the call before even giving me time to speak another word.

But even in her threats, she doesn’t sound like she has energy.

Could she be dying?

Is her condition worsening? I have a myriad of questions in my head but these are the times I would wish for some sort of blockage.

I hate overthinking. Especially with all that has been happening in my life. If I keep thinking I might loose my mind and I honestly don’t want that for myself.

What example is mum really setting for little kids like Lexie?

Doesn’t she know that Lexie and any other kids have pure spirit and can discern any bad spirits around them?

Is she really not interested in being a good mother at least to the young ones?

‘’Are you okay love?’’ Bob asks and I realize that I had just been thinking for long.

I come back to real life to the vehicle carrying us and I am shaking with fear, I take the phone and look at it. Should I call her back?

I decide to try and call the number in a pure desperation of what to do but she doesn’t pick. She must either be enjoying the situation or maybe in a not so good state.

‘’Mum is calling for me.’’ I say desperately and Bob tightens his hold on me.

‘’Can we head to the hospital?’’ that’s Steve and I swear I shed a tear just thinking of how supportive my friends are.

‘’Yes please.’’ Bob says but I just nod. ‘’and thank you bro.’’

‘’Don’t mention it, I can do anything for the love I have for my little sister.’’ Bob sighs audibly.

‘’Thank Heaven you said for your little sister.’’ He says with a very sweet smile and a direct contact and he kisses me so passionately on the lips. I feel weak all over sudden and I don’t have the strength to kiss him back but I am sure he understands me.

Steve looks at us and just smiles.

He is on phone and he is instructing whoever is on the other end to come to St. Josephs Ombo Hospital Migori.

He terminates the call and when our eyes meet in the rare view mirror he smiles and I smile back. Steve is the only man I know who has the most genuine friendship for me.

He loves me genuinely and it is not because he wants to get into my pants no, he respect me so much and I know so well that he is a good man.

I hope he gets a sweet woman, loving and loveable so that he can have a sweet life with the woman he loves.

I love Steve right back though I feel so secure with him and he has never given me any reasons for otherwise.

‘’Don’t tell me you are jealous of me lunatic!’’

‘’Not really bro, but a man has to take care of what belongs to him.’’ Bob says with a smile.

When we get to the hospital, Dad is at the reception and when he sees me, he opens his arms wide and I run into them.

‘’Thank you for coming my daughter, I am so happy to see you.’’

‘’Thank you for being here too dad, I don’t trust mum so I wasn’t even sure if I could come but thanks to my very supportive friends, I am here.’’

He looks at them then nods.

‘’They are good people. They will always be there for you my daughter, the wise man has spoken.’’

‘’Thank you dad. I love you.’’

‘’And you know I love you too. Let’s go in and speak to your mum.’’

‘’Lynn,’’ I hear a familiar voice and I turn to look at the direction. ‘’I am right here in case you need me.’’ Vin says and I nod.

I look at Bob and his hands are eagerly waiting for me. I literally run into them and the hug is warm and quite loving.

‘’I love you so much.’’

‘’I love you so much more too love.’’

‘’Go in there with my love and support. I know its family things otherwise I would have gone in with you.’’

‘’I will sweetheart.’’

‘’Be very strong and take care of yourself.’’

Tears are welling up in my eyes and trust me I can’t let them do that to me so I blink a million times to keep them at bay.

I look at all the people I love and they are all here to support me.

They move closer and cover me in a group hug.

‘’We love you Lynn.’’ Steve says and they all nod at that.

I walk hastily to the door leading to mum’s room. I don’t dare look back because if I see them looking at me I might just break down but no! I am not about to do that. I want to stay strong for anyone I care about.

I am so surprised to find all my siblings in there. The only person who did not manage to come is Lexie probably because ideally kids aren’t allowed in a hospital room.

I look at each and every person in the room and no one has joy I turn to look at mum and she nods.

‘’I am happy you managed. I didn’t think Nairobi would be just a few minutes away.’’ She says sarcastically and I don’t respond.

I am tempted to say it is technology but I refrain from the same.

‘’I will tell you about what happened more than two years ago in a short paragraph. I don’t have much time to live so save your questions for later after I am done.’’ She says and I can feel the tension that is in the room.

It is just too much. Her favourite persons are already in tears but I decide to stay strong. Both for me, dad and Lexie.

‘’I met this guy Elias, Toney’s dad. I felt the urge to do what he wanted. He wanted sex and I got carried away so I slept with him. Stolen items are always super sweet and you always want to go for more. He urged me to go for more and it became a routine. Every time I would feel like I wanted to be screwed I looked for him and same for him.’’ My dad has his head between his palms and I know so well what that means. He is actually going through shame and I can’t look at him straight. ‘’we did this for a few months and the demand became more. One day as we were in the act, Mariana caught us red handed and we had no choice than to let go of the relationship.’’ She says sadly. Later on she approached me and told me that if I wanted her to forgive me she would give me a condition. She said her son is weak and will not be able to find a good girl for himself so we agreed to give him Lynn.’’ When she says that I feel the urge to strangle her and just finish her life once and for all, or even make her shut up forever but hey, I have better things to do with my life than strangling her. “I later on found her screwing a certain guy and the condition was I don’t say anything to Elias or anyone or else, she would tell your dad.’’ She said softly and closes her eyes as if falling asleep.

‘’Is Lexie his daughter?’’ Dad asks and looks at her hopefully. I am sure he is hoping that it’s not the case.

Yes she is please don’t discriminate her.’’ She says and I am sure she is loosing breath.

‘’Does he know?’’

‘’No he doesn’t.’’

‘’Did you stop seeing him?’’

‘’Yes I did.’’

‘’When?’’

‘’When I realized I was pregnant.’’

My dad looks tired and disinterested even as he questions her, his eyes are red shot and trust me he is not so happy with the revelation.

He must have lived knowing that his wife was the most faithful woman ever.

‘’Why did you call me here?’’ I ask once dad is done.

It seems like everyone else is shocked beyond asking questions.

‘’Because I am so sorry for putting you through the shit Lynn you didn’t deserve it.’’

‘’Am I really your child?’’ I ask hoping she says no because no one puts their kids through such malicious things just because of a stupid agreement.

‘’Well, if the hospital gave me the right baby then you are.’’ She says and coughs and I can see traces of blood.

‘’I am so sorry my children I know life sucks but it is worse when you have a lunatic for a mother.’’ She says and I reach for her hands.

‘’It’s okay mum, you did what was best according to you. Please be talking about this things to save souls.’’

‘’Thank you my daughter. Please forgive me everyone.’’

‘’Do you know why George is after me?’’

‘’Yes, he told Mariana that you suspected his drug dealing and he thinks you will be his downfall.’’

‘’Ooh my!’’ I exclaim but say nothing.

‘’Good bye my……’’ she doesn’t finish whatever she wanted to say. That was probably the last word she has spoken on earth.

Dad moves closer and looks at her. He puts his fingers on her face and pushes her eyes closed.

‘’Go in peace, you were my children’s mum and I still love you.’’

He says and announces to us that she is dead. She has gone to rest and her journey on earth has ended.

He is about to turn and walk away but he falls thunderously.

‘’The doctor,’’ I shout and turn to get him but he says a stern no.

He motions me to move closer and he places his palm on  my head gently.

‘’You have all my blessings to marry Bob, he is going to make you happy.’’

‘’Thank you dad but please stay with us.’’

‘’Someone call Bob.’’ He says a mid-coughs and my brother rushes out to call him.

‘’My son. Take good care of Lynn. Please promise me that she is in good hands.’’

‘’I will definitely do. Lynn is safe with me.’’

He holds both our hands and says something I quite didn't understand.

‘’Thank you. Lynn please take care of Lexie and the rest of you please take care of yourselves."
This looks like a goodbye. We all look at each other without a word.

I am becoming weak and just as my legs start to give up, Bob walks closer to me and gives me a cool hug.

A very tight one.

Torrents of tears are falling and I just let them.

His hold on me is secure enough but I can’t help.

Our parents are dead in one day.