I Love You ; Jennie Kim

#4 : Nervous

Jennie's POV

For the past two days, I've been adjusting to my new room. Rosé did great with decorating it. I have unpacked my clothes and other stuff I brought along. I'm totally expert at pushing my feelings aside and dealing with things a day at a time. Which is exactly what I have been doing. I haven't heard from my parents or even my sister. Kai works for my dad four times a week and mentioned him being stricter on him.

He always liked that Kai was interested in business. I'm sure his opinion on him has changed by now. I made an appointment here when I arrived two days ago. It was Rosé's idea to get everything set up and to confirm my pregnancy. Kai was even attending every appointment with me. Despite the drive and the fact that he works today, he still drove to join me.

His car pulls up beside mine. I grab my bag and meet him at the entrance. "Good morning." Kai smiled as he holding the door open for me. It's still weird for us to be talking. After our breakup, I promised myself that I would never say a word to him again. But now it turned upside down, I have to see him for the rest of our lives now.

I signed my name at the front desk and join Kai. His leg bounces when he's nervous and it doesn't help that it makes me feel worse. I place a hand on his knee, he smiles sheepishly. "Sorry." He said quietly.

"Nervous?"

He denies it as expected. "Are you?"

My name was called and his question is answered when I nod. We follow the lady who gives us a kind smile. I let Kai talk while I keep my mouth shut. We sit down and wait for the nurse to come in. It takes less than five minutes before she introduces herself and tells us what we'll be doing today.

I almost feel embarrassed when she asks about my last period. I never kept up with it because of how irregular it was. I had no other symptoms other than the recent throwing up. She assured me that it was fine and that most women go through that as well. I'm around six weeks pregnant which sounds about right. We scheduled another appointment for our first ultrasound next week.

I had a urine pregnancy test done and I'm one hundred percent pregnant. Kai asked questions and didn't seem to be nervous anymore. Kai walks me to my car, reading through the pamphlet we were given. He finally looks at me.

"How are you feeling?" He asked.
I shrugged , "I'm okay. And you?"

The heat becomes unbearable but I ignore it. "I'm fine, I'm fine." He smiled. "Have you considered us moving in together?"

I avoid his eyes because he asked over the phone and I told him I will talk about it later. My answer is no, I just don't know how to tell him that. I don't want to move in together with him.

"It's not a good idea, Kai." I watched his expression. Kai sighed, stuffing his hands in his pockets. "Jen, I make enough money to rent an apartment for the three of us. You don't have to worry about any of it."

If we were still together, I would say yes in a heartbeat. We always talked about moving in together and having takeout once a month. Things are different now and I know that moving together won't be easy.

"I'm staying with Rosé for now."

He nodded instead of arguing. I unlock my car, giving him a small smile. "You better get going before my dad does something crazy."

His lips turn at the corner. "Heh, you're right. Do you want breakfast first?" He asked. I followed him to a restaurant down the street. Kai only had twenty minutes so we wasted no time until he had to drive back. My dad is all about being professional, I can't imagine how he'll deal with Kai being late. He did tell him in advance but I doubt that will do much.

I drive back to the apartment and spend the rest of the time watching videos. I've been trying to prepare for what's coming in this pregnancy. I never took the time to think about how difficult it really is. I'm in the easy stages according to everyone on youtube. I thought nausea and lack of appetite were bad only to find out that it gets much worse.

I have a lot of preparing to do before any of that happens. What really made me push my laptop far away from me was finding out about the actual birth. I decided that I've had enough of that and instead start on making lunch.

Rosé should be home in two hours. I just watch whatever I can find on the TV and wait around for her. It gives me the motivation to find a job because I can't see myself doing this every day.