You're My Sunshine, I'm Your warrior

Jealousy Is A Cruel Mistress

Zee's Pov

It's been weeks since the last time Saint and I had some private time together, weeks since we last slept together, weeks since we spend time to just love each other, he's been working on the scrip either with P'New or with Nong Perth. He's no longer alone anymore, he always has work, meetings or events to attend. It's not that I'm jealous....or...am I?  Maybe but just a little bit.. Sometimes I really get frustrated with his current schedule, I want him for myself just for a few hours, is it too much to ask?!

I ruffle my hair from frustration as I watch him working....again but in our house this time. I'm currently sitting near the kitchen counter while Saint and Perth are working on their roles in living room's sofa, the filming will start tomorrow and they want to be ready. From where I am I can see their profile as they are sitting facing each other. I can hear them talk about kissing and how the scene a will play out, and I'm at my limit today. 

I thought I wouldn't care, it's just a movie right? But seeing Perth touch his chubby cheeks or grab his hands is sending electric shocks all over my body. I've been watching them for hours and I've seen everything I didn't want to see so far ... being lovely dovey, holding hands, rubbing cheeks or hugging.

It might sound selfish but my whole being is scream mine, mine , mine on a loop since the beginning of the practice time...every time Perth touches Saint's hand, hair, cheeks... they're too close for me to not burn of jealousy. I don't share what's mine, I don't want him to touch what's mine, but do I have a choice? I have to share him for the sake of his career...arghhh this is driving me nuts!! I want to kick them out of the house... that Perth kid and his friend!

Because of course Nong Perth needed to bring that plant, plom or whatever his name was into my house too. He's been sitting there and encouraging them or giving them advices the whole time.  He's annoying me even more than the two others...I see him walking up to me with the excuses of bringing them watter.

"He won't steal him away from you, you know?" Perth's friend said sitting down next to me, I don't like his attitude and the way he looks at me but I won't start a fight with my boy's co-worker....for the sake of his career Zee remember you promised to support him, don't break it...I sight and look at that boy again before smiling and saying "I'm not doubting it, I trust Saint and I doubt he would want anyone else anyway"

"Then stop throwing daggers with your eyes P" he said smiling wildely before taking his drink and going back. I was still looking at the spot he occupied a few seconds ago...did I really look that pissed? This is not good... I can't act that way, this is work.

Suddenly Perths ask Saint a question making me slip from my chair out of shock "Shall we practice the kisses too P? I'm lost and nervous already"

They all turn to me...how embarrassing

"You're okay bay'?"

"Yes don't worry! Just felt dizzy standing up,  please continue to work I'm fine!"

I managed to smile...man that was embarrassing as hell! Saint just smiled at me before going back to Perth. Shall I fall again? Hmm...not definitely not it hurts too bad

"Perth don't be nervous, it will be okay, the more you will kiss the more it will be easy, you don't have to practice it since it will also be Ae's First kiss." Saint reassured Perth  and then patted his back with a big smile.

The more he smiles the more unreasonable I become...Don't smile to him like that ! That smile is mine ! I can't help my brain to shout these but I stopped my mouth from doing it out loud.  After being tortured for a whole day, I couldn't take it anymore but I didn't want to cut their practice short on a whim.  So I left the kitchen and went back to my room not sparing them a glance even if I can feel Saints eyes following me.

I throw myself on my bed and switch the tv on, going through a lot of channels and spending hours watching random shows. After a while, the bedroom door slowly opens and a small familiar head stucked himself through the small opening. I really want to laugh at his silliness, I can feel him looking at me with only his head being apparent in the room as his body was still behing the door. I know he thinks I'm upset but I'm not really, I want to tell him but I also really want to see what he will do so I decide to ignore him and act sulky...well i tried because the minute I heard his broken voice I nearly ran to his side.

"P~ I'm sorry"

I looked up to him, I'm not good at acting and hearing is sad voice as if he did something bad just.....argh! I can't see him dejected like this without wanting to spoil him. I mention him to get closer, he walks up to me like a small kid who's waiting to be punished, he's too cute to be true and I can't help but laugh.

"I'm not angry Saint" his Brown eyes looked at me, observing me, thinking that I might be joking but I kept a straight face..well as straight as I can at least....He was clearly expecting me to be angry or to sulk but I'm surprisingly fine,  I feel better than earlier. I can't resist and pinch his cheeks "I went up because I didn't want to disturb you as I was clearly getting jealous every time he touched you"

Relief washed over him as he relaxed, he sat down on the bed and took my hand, his other hand sliding slowly from my head to my cheeks until it stops on my left cheek, stroking it lightly "thank you...You're the best boyfriend ever. I love you, you don't have to be jealous of him, he's just a kid and I like him as a borther only but you I love you so much"

"Hmm still a brother you will kiss and touch...." It's true that I feel uneasy about those scenes, the one I read in the book are quite explicit and I don't know how far P'New will make them or how intense they would be...I'll have to replace the taste of his lips by my own after each scene for sure...

"Yes....but only on screen" he took both of my hands again and puts it in his own cheeks "this is only yours...he touches the ones being Pete's, when I'm with him I'm Pete but when I'm with you...I'm only Saint"

"Well Only Saint, can you at least spare us some time? I've been missing you here !"

"You're always missing me ! even if we nearly live together ! but I'll try, for you I'll do my best" he shivers and laughs at his own cheesy words but I'm happy he said those now I can try and think of it differently, without knowing he just gave me an idea to tone down my jealousy.

"Come on can you give me a kiss at least?" He rised his eyebrow at my demand,

" What? I really miss those red plump's lip's taste"

"You've never ask for a kiss before.. Why do you ask something when it's already yours?"

I see his mischievous grin and while I'm thinking of an answer he gets closer to my face..."So what should I do then?" I asked looking at his face, he's already just an inch away from my face, so close...too close for me to keep my sanity intact... I just want to grab his head and kiss him already but I'm trying to be patient now..

"You just have to take it" he whispered his answer and I nearly lost it there....I felt his lips moving against mine due to the small gap between our faces, I felt my heartbeat rise when anticipation....I'm way too gone for him, my body reacts on his own, I can't control it and smash our lips together....I can feel his smirk against my lips when I hold onto his neck while kissing him.  I entended to keep the kiss longer but I felt his hand sliding up on my chest before he pushes me away.

"Enough enough you're going to kill me ! You're asking for a kiss, not a make out session !" 

"What ? shall I ask for a make out session to be able to hold onto my boyfriend?" 

"Keep dreaming, I have to work! Maybe later if you behave" He tricked me, what a brat !

After giving me some hope, he just ran away to the living room leaving me in the bedroom smiling like an idiot for a few minutes before I decided to get up and Chase him down.

You have too much power over me Saint Suppapong Udomkaewkanjana ! And I wouldn't want it the other way.

"Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along." – Rumi

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It's a bit longer than the previous ones and in Zee's point of view which was a little bit harder for me to write. I'm trying to improve my writing haha
Hope you'll like it!
I'm still not over today's ZeeSuo content and the Fighter Tutor looks😍😍❤💙