You're My Sunshine, I'm Your warrior

If Only I could Shield You

Saint was standing in front of the coffee table, watching something on TV when Zee came back from the gym.

Zee didn't pay attention to what exactly Saint was watching, his only worry being that he left the boy alone too long.

He didn't notice the red eyes, the tears stains on the cheeks, at least not right away. The sudden realization froze him on the spot, Saint was crying, again. He didn't dare going closer to Saint, who was looking at the TV as if it holded all the answers to his questions

"Saint, babe?" He tentatively called

Saint looked at him and smiled, a faded smile, one that was drained and no longer hold the sparkle it once had. Saint smiles used to make the world a better place, they used to light up the whole room. Now they look fake.

Zee loosed all sense of discussion, one thing obsessing his mind, make him stop. He walked the distance slowly, as if he was afraid to scare his boyfriend. Saint stood there, waiting for him. Only When Zee finally hugged him, did he move, leaning onto Zee, legs go weak not able to support him any longer. Zee managed to take them both to the couch.

The room was calm, only Saints muffled cries could be heard in the silence. Zee noticed that the TV was off, Saint was most probably lost in his thoughts. Saint was still wearing his pajamas.

Once Saint calmed down, Zee took his wrist and headed to the door. Saint was dragged to the door. He tried calling Zee, tried to understand. But Zee was deaf to all his pleas.

"Stop dragging me P'ZEE!" he tried to make Zee slow down as they reached the front door but no success. Zee's grip on his arm was so tight that it actually started hurting him.
Zee opened to door and dragged him the car, he opened the door to the car and....

"ZEE PRUK PANICH STOP RIGHT NOW! YOU ARE HURTING ME" Saint screamed, making Zee stop in his track. He turned back to Saint, letting the boy's arm go.

While rubbing his arm Saint looked at Zee, "gosh, what's wrong with you, that hurts! at least tell me where and why we're going out!"

"I'm sorry, let's go now please?" Zee himself didn't know why he felt the urge to take Saint away from the house, from the city....from home.

"I'm not going anywhere ! I have no schedule today, I want to relax. I'm tired P'. Let's go back inside and talk"

"..."

"You are hiding something from me and I don't like it P...what happened? "

"Nothing. Please let's just go, I just feel that we need to go. This once, please listen to me?"

"Why? P's come on whatever it is, running away from home is not a solution please." Saint grew suspicious
"Saint, I...okay let's go inside first."
Zee gave up his idea when he saw the serious stares Saint was giving him.

Saint was really worried but still followed Zee and went back inside the house. They sat down but didn't talk for what seemed like hours. Saint then went up in their room, Zee following him closely. And as they sat on the bed, Saint talked again

" we have a house, a room...where did you want to take me?"

"Saint, I dont feel safe in the house. I wanted us to go in a hostel,I feel like I dont know. Trust me just okay?"

"I don't believe you Pruk. You know I rather hear the truth from you..than someone else. What did you do? What happened?"

"Nothing" Zee couldn't bring himself to tell Saint that the snakes were tarnishing his reputation once again...on instagram...this time worse.

"I see"

Saint seemed pretty calm but the truth was he already knows what Zee is desperately trying to hide from him. He already saw Big's Instagram post and all the insults that followed it on twitter. He already spend an hour reading them all one by one. Sitting in the couch and crying to his heart content...he has already done that. But as much as he wants to keep crying, he knows people care for him, his fans, his mother, his family and one of the most precious man in his life, Zee.

"I've seen it" Saint suddenly admitted it.

Zee smiled, of course Saint had seen it. "Saint. I.."

"Its okay P', my fans know me, the true me...they wont believe that right?" Saint gave him a small smile

"I'm sorry Saint...." pulling Saint into his embrace.

"You didn't do it, you don't have to be sorry" Saint Said hugging Zee a bit closer. Head on his chest.

"I didn't do anything. That's the problem. I'm late. Again. This is my problem Saint, I cant stand this but I'm powerless. I want to rip his head off...but that would be a crime. I want to lock you up in a room and prevent you for being hurt but that's not a possibility either. I'm just powerless, like a doll, an audience to your pain.."

"That's true, there is nothing you can do to stop this. But that doesn't mean you are powerless. You are my strength, yes I saw all the ugly tweets, the insults, the ig story & everything. I cried too but I remembered that I'm not alone, I have you. So I'm trying to be strong for you."

Saint smiled to Zee, it was strange comforting Zee as the past months Saint was the one who needed comfort. But it felt good, not be the only one who needed a hug or reassurance from the other.

Zee stroke Saints hair"don't listen to those morons. They are just money suckers that's all."

"I dont care about what they think....I care about the effects it has on you, mom or the fans"

"Do your job, I'll make sure that he wont be able to touch you ever after this.Until then hold on?"

" what mister savior? What will you do?" Said Saint amused

"Your next project. I'll make sure to be close to you publicly for that one"

"Zee! You cant announce our relationship" Saint said afraid of the boys idea.

"Oh I won't, not really but I'm not going to hide it either. Just wait for it" zee said smirking.

"Okay okay whatever Mr super hero" Saint said smiling

If Big thinks Zee will let him play with Saint for Perths fame for a long time, he believes in fairytales. Zee was ready to fight back in his own way. And he will start with getting accepted by Saints fans...... he smiled thinking of the possible ways, he needs to play his cards nicely since a lot are PS shippers.

It is at moments like these that I know my what my purpose is in life. I am here to love you, to hold you in my arms, to protect you. I am here to learn from you and to receive your love in return.I am here because there is no other place to be.
- Nicholas Sparks

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Hey everyone!
Another chap haha

Hope you'll like it !
Zee will slowly get into action🤭🤭
And we will soon get the other sides Poing of view too.
I'll try to update soon

Let me know what you think so far
What will Zee do?🤔