You're My Sunshine, I'm Your warrior

The Hidden Truth

In the middle of the appartment, Saint was talking to Zee over the phone. 

"I will finish late today, when will you finish the work today Nong?"

"I didn't work today Phi~, don't worry I'll make some food until you get back! but I have to do a reaction video on youtube for the fans" 

"Why didn't you work? didn't you have an event with the rest?"

"hm...No Phi, it's not related to LBC, forget it, I have to go see you tonigh!!"

Saint quickly hang up, and went to sit on the couch, preparing to make a video reaction of episode 4. He was not really in the mood but he knew that the fans would love to see it and it motivated him. As the video started, he did his best to be cheerful and happy, just like the fans were used to see him. 

While his mother was sitting a bit further away, watching her son. The truth is that the past few days were a nightmare for her. Watching her son being left out from a lot of things and he refused the offer to be a part of attractor, and things went wrong from that moment. 

After shooting, Saint said goodbye to his mother and his managers, and closed the door. 

"Ok ! let's go prepare food  now !" he said, while running towards the kitchen. Once the food was done, he cooked something simple, curry with rice. He then decided to iron Zee's clothes, while waiting for him because he wanted to occupy his mind and not think about all the problems he had at work. 

 He never thought he would be the victim of hate at the end of his journey. He's rarely invited to any events with the boys anymore, his once dreamed role is getting tarnished. Love by chance cast is becoming 7 as if Pete, his role, the 8th boy never existed. Just as Pete, sometimes Saint feels like his existence in here didn't matter...

" was I that bad in my role? or did I just dream too big?" he muttered slowly as tears started to gather at the corner of his eyes.

"What do you mean ?" 

Saint jumped, surprised to hear Zee's voice.

"What happened Saint? why are you ironing the same t-shirt for the past 5minute?"said Zee trying to be as gentle as possible.

"Zee...I..." tears escaped his eyes slowly and prevented him from ending his sentence. Seeing his boyfriend in such a state, Zee let go of the bag he was holding and quickly went to Saint's side. He slowly took the iron and put it back on the table, he then took Saint by the shoulder slowly to turned him towards him. He then hugged the crying boy, letting him cry to his heart content. They stayed that way for a while, when Saint calmed down Zee turned the iron off, unplugging it. 

"Let's talk on the couch, come here" Zee took his hand and led him to the couch.

As they sat, Ze asked Saint again "what happened? why were you crying?"

"Just emotions...no need to worry P'Zee" Saint said trying hard to hide the truth. He didn't want to involve Zee in this mess.

"Saint, we promised we would always be honest with each other right?" said the taller boy, taking Saint's hand in his.

"Yes.."

"I'll be honest...I talked to P'Keng and your mom...I know things but I want to hear that from you. Can you please share it with me?"

Saint nodded his head before taking a deep breath.

"Today I was supposed to work....but... despite knowing that the event holder contacted me first for that couple event, I had to take myself out to not cut the job for the other boys...They're having fun at the event and I'm just here...Attractor refused to do the event if they take me too.."

"Why didn't you tell me what was happening?"

Saint shrugged his shoulder, "I didn't want to involve you"

 "SAINT! Gosh...this is a serious matter ! I need to know it from you, how many ice creams and tears did you share by yourself? How many nights did you feel lonely by yourself?! How long did you plan on enduring this alone?" Zee finally said. 

"You can't just endure that alone, I'm your boyfriend, I'm supposed to be there to support you!" 

"I'm sorry" Saint's eyes were full of tears again, of course he suffered through everything alone and of course it was difficult for him. He always wanted to tell Zee, to cry in his arms and seek his confort but he didn't want to worry him more than what he already had. So he cried alone in his bed or in the shower before going to sleep. 

Zee hugged him, he was angry but he knew that he couldn't do anything. He can't get involved in a conflict between two agency that easily especially since he's also in another agency. But he knew what to do next, he can't possibly leave Saint with those snakes to eat all that boy's positive energy until forever. He was glad when he heard that Saint had Mean by his side, who tried his best to cheer him up. He always like the boy, he never once acted bad towards them. 

"From now on, I need to know every single details that happens, you hear me?"

Saint just nodded his head, deep down he was glad Zee knew everything and he didn't have to tell him anything. 

"Okay okay Enough crying ! Let's eat ice cream and get fat together !"

"Dummy~ let's eat first and then let's have ice cream ! I want chocolate ...."

Zee smiled as Saint was telling him what he wanted while heading to the kitchen, he couldn't help but think that Saint loved food more than he loved his boyfriend. 

"P'Zee you're coming or what?!"

"I'm coming~~" 

He joined his boyfriend in the kitchen to eat. 

"If you just believe in me, I will love you endlessly." — Mariah Carey

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Hii I know I know I didn't write for a while~

I'm sorrry haha I had wayyy too many things to do these days ! And I have my essay on Shakespeare to write and translate some parts of the play for uni. I was really busy but I'm back~

I won't promise to write often but I'll try to update once a week haha

This is a small chapter, nothing much happens but it was needed ^^"

See you soon again! Hope you enjoy~~